Bakugo drags you to the courtyard, shoving you away. "After what I told you tonight you kissed him?!" Bakugo yells tears of rage and betrayal streaking their way frustratingly down his cheeks. "Bakugo I had no idea that was gonn-" Todoroki looks at you in shock. "You said you were going to train with Aizawa?!" Your shoulders sag as you see that you really did encourage this. The class begins congregating around you three and you slump to your knees.
"Please understand that I never wanted to hurt you..." Your words trail off into silence. Even you are unsure of which boy you are directing your words to. Bakugo's hands crackle loudly near your head. "What the hell have you been doing with that half and half bastard huh?!" Bakugo yells with all his might, turning to glare at you. "Nothing Bakugo please." Todoroki steps forward so he can see your face and Bakugo's. "We've talked about everything, and I kissed her twice. Upon analyzing she never did ask for me to kiss her though." Your heart breaks at the tone in Todoroki's voice.
"Neither of you did anything wrong please just...I care about both of you I just don't know what I feel exactly. I'm so confused...." You burst into tears and while Todoroki hesitates Bakugo comes immediately to your side. "Is it a panic attack?" He asks, showing more tenderness in that moment than the class had seen him ever show in their years of knowing him.
You shake your head no and blubber out between sobs, "I am so sorry Bakugo I was so alone and I do have love for him but I'm in love with you and I don't know what to do and I want you to hurt me so I can stop hurting me over this!" Your explosion of truths leaves the entire class in shock but only Bakugo is able to mask it, understanding that in this moment you were losing control mentally and it was progressing rapidly. "Everybody go the fuck away!" Bakugo screams, causing you to flinch. He looks down concerned he has sent you further into your own mind.
"Icy hot you too we need to be alone." Bakugo demands in a threatening tone. "No." The simple word is enough to send Bakugo himself spiraling. He shoots a warning explosion Todoroki's way when he tries to get closer to you, sending you straight into a flashback.
"FUCK!" Bakugo grunts, completely emotionally exhausted. "You have to let her ride it out." Todoroki announces in his smooth tone. "I know what to do, moron I did it all summer. You've only been doing it for a week and a half!" Todoroki flinches looking down at you in Bakugo's arms twitching against whatever nightmare has overtaken your mind.
-Childhood flashback moment-
Your tutor stands over you shooting deafening bullets into the ceiling as you cry. "You're not trying hard enough Y/N!" The burly woman bellows her lips only inches from your face. The sickly smell of her breath mixed with the nausea of overusing your quirk makes you vomit. "So pathetic. No hero class is going to take you if you're not able to control your emotions. Dumb child. AGAIN!" She yells and kicks you hard.
"GO AWAY!" The scream comes from your mouth and Bakugo sighs seeing your eyes come back to the present. "It's just me Y/N." You grab onto Bakugo's shirt and bury your face in his chest, enveloping yourself in the sweet smell of his flammable sweat. "I am so sorry..." You whimper tears falling down your cheeks. "I don't deserve you and I don't deserve to be here at UA> I really do mess everything up with your emotions." The two boys tense equally unsure of how they should respond.
"I wish I could feel more." Shoto nervously adds earning him a glare from Bakugo. You jolt upright pulling away from Bakugo a bit. "You stayed too?" You ask eyes wide in disbelief. "I wish he hadn't." Bakugo huffs with an angry roll of his eyes. "Of course I did. I am really hurt...but I care about you Y/N. Also Bakugo was going ballistic earlier." "YOU BASTARD I'd never hurt her!" Bakugo's grip on you tightens but out of anger or protection you were not sure. Iida comes rushing over and yells about potentially being late for school. You tell the boys to meet at your room tonight to just talk, and they agree. 'I need to find a way to make up for this...to fix this.' you say to yourself as you make your way to the school, keeping your head down as you walk.
-Time Skip-
You ended up telling Mina, Momo, and Tsu about the plan of the guys meeting in your dorm and asked for help to look out in case for some reason teacher's made an impromptu visit to the dorms. This was done of course as payment for spilling all the tea you had been holding back since the first day of school. "Having one at a time in your room was okay, but you didn't think Aizawa would be too keen with it either way." She had told you and for the first time realized maybe Todoroki coming to your room all those times sent him a message you weren't aware of.
You now lay on your bed, legs bouncing at an ungodly speed, your eyes fixed on your door. After what seems like ages both boys walk through the door at almost the same time. Of course Bakugo can'r resist himself and slams the door into Todoroki. You work hard on keeping your face expressionless as they enter and take their seat. Todoroki sits on the foot of your bed while Bakugo sits on your pillow. Just as you decide you're going to say something about it Bakugo's face goes a slight shade of pink and he attempts to move it subtly.
Standing up you look at the two boys. "Guys...so this is...well..." You bite your lip and look them in the eye for the first time since this morning. You sigh and put your hair up in a ponytail to stall for time.
"Just spit it out Y/N do you like me or not?!" Bakugo is unsurprisingly the first to crack. He had no cares to give about what was appropriate for him to do anymore. He needed to know where he stood with you. Todoroki's eye shifts to Bakugo leading him to a very unpleasant revelation. "You're in love with her." Todoroki speaks out the words Bakugo has been trying to find for months, and it pisses him off.
"I NEVER SA-" You make a small sound and upon looking at how broken you seem to feel...he freezes, takes a breath and decides that maybe this once...he can be what you actually need. "Is it true?" Your voice is so soft, almost too soft to hear but it's enough to tell Todoroki what he needs to know. All the time you two spent in this very room and you were staring at Bakugo with those eyes...'Why not me?' His mind cries out but his expression is stone.
"Y/N I really like you...but...it feels wrong to try and take this from you. I want you to be with Bakugo...I see your love." And with that Todoroki walks out for the first time since he was a small child. He wanted to cry, and he wanted to burn. He did love you but seeing the brokenness knowing Bakugo loved you...he shook his head and accidentally slams his door. 'This is what will make her happier...I'm not good enough.'
You stare at the floor completely frozen as all the emotions rush through you. One half of you begs that you run after Shoto to fight his demons like he has for you, and the other wants the summer lies back. The ones where everything was fairly simple and happy and...tears stream down your cheeks and you growl in frustration.
"Y/N..." Bakugo rubs his thumb across your cheek so gently it breaks your heart more. He puts a finger beneath your chin directing you to look up at him. Blinking away tears for a moment you finally look up to find he's about an inch from your face. "I am in love with you too." He whispers before kissing you.
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A/N wellp looks like Y/N is gettin with B-boi. I wonder how Todoroki will handle everything. :c
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Sweet Summer Lies(Bakugoxreader)
Fanfiction(ON HOLD) After a beautiful summer you and Bakugo head to UA for your last year in the hero course. You are ecstatic about getting to see Bakugo on a daily basis and not just when you're both home alone. Little do you know things won't be as dreamy...
