an illegal addiction

january 11th

so in this chapter there is a word italicized. that is a bit of foreshadowing. don't want anyone to be confused. xx

it was 8 o'clock in the morning and my mom rushed into my room in a hurry because I was late.

"mom I'm not going to school today. I told you last night."

"and I told you if you did not tell me why, you were going to school!"

"mom! I don't want to talk about it!" I yelled bursting into tears.

she came and sat on my bed realizing that this was serious.

"honey please tell me what happened so I can help you." she pleaded.

"I'm not ready to talk about it. please don't make me. please don't make me go to school. I can't face it today. I promise I will tomorrow." I cried and begged.

"okay sweetheart. but you are not to leave this house without permission. got it?" she firmly said.

I nodded returning to laying down and watching pretty little liars. I'm probably insane because I'm a complete wreck about this break up but I'm also trying to think of a divine plan to seduce Mr. Raven.

that's why I'm watching pretty little liars. Ezra is Aria's teacher and they somehow made it work. a lot of shows have the same plot line... like Life Unexpected. Lux and her teacher slept together. but that was before they knew he was going to be a teacher at her school. that's the problem, all of the story lines go :

girl meets boy in a bar
girl and boy have sex
girl goes to school sees boy is teacher
boy flips out and breaks it off
girl says she's head over heels
girl and boy work it out

Anthony and I both already know we're student and teacher so that's not going to work.

I decided to go back to sleep. sleeping is better than facing my reality right now.

-6 hours later-

I was woken up by knocking on the door. I quickly jumped out of bed putting on a tank top and short shorts. throwing my hair into a messy bun. I ran to the door and opened it only to find the last person I wanted to see me like this.

my hair hadn't been brushed neither have my teeth, I had no makeup on and my face was stained with tears and snot (eww), I barely had any clothes on and there at my front door was Anthony. Anthony Raven. my teacher.

"hi Blair." he spoke.

"uh hi Mr. Raven." I shyly said.

"may I come in?" he asked.

"oh yeah. yes of course. --- but umm would you give me like 5 minutes to make myself more presentable? just make yourself at home."

I dashed into my room closing the door. I put on a pair of leggings and a flannel, then I ran to my bathroom brushing my teeth and my hair and quickly washing my face. I ran back to the living room where I found Anthony sitting on my sofa.

he smiled and said, "done? and with 3 minutes to spare. you make yourself look pretty good in 2 minutes."

we both blushed. I don't think he meant to say that.

"thanks! it's a gift." I said brushing it off.

"so I came all the way over here to give you the notes you missed today and the homework. I also got your work from other classes."

"thank you. you didn't have to do that, I'll be back tomorrow."

he did the thing where he rubbed his back and looked to the floor... I can tell that he was nervous about something.

"well to be completely honest I wanted to see if you were okay. yesterday you looked pretty lost and then when you weren't in school today I got a little nervous."

I smiled and looked to the floor.

"what?" he slightly chuckled as we stared into each other's eyes.

"it's just.... nobody has ever cared like that before. except for Kayla but tags besides the point. I've never had a guy or a teacher let alone both... care for me like that." I said nervously.

"did you want to talk about what happened?" he asked.

"I don't want to burden you with the details of my life." I said with a shrug.

"you won't be. I'm asking for the details." he said sitting on the sofa.

I sat across from him and let everything out. I can't believe how easy it was to talk to him. I actually cried in front of him. I've never cried in front of a guy before.

this is going to be bad. when I'm with him all my walls come down. I think I could actually fall for him... oh no.

he pulled me into a hug gently rubbing my back to soothe me.

"it's going to be okay. one day you will find someone that would never even dream of cheating on you. you're really amazing. I can't believe jared would even do that to a girl like you. he had everything. and he just threw all of that away."

I wiped my tears away and smiled at him. he was the amazing one.

"thank you Mr. Raven." his smile dropped as he remember he is 'Mr. Raven' to me.

he cleared his throat and stood up.

"I should be going now. I hope to see you at school tomorrow."

"you don't have to go. I can make you something to eat and you can help me with the notes and homework you brought." I said with hope.

he smiled, "sure. what can it hurt?"

everything