an illegal addiction

the aftermath

this morning I woke up in Anthony's arms. his head nestled into the crook of my neck. I smiled and wiggled a little. he woke up smiling.

"good morning baby." his morning voice was raspy and gorgeous, it made me melt.

"good morning." I flipped myself over pecking his nose.

we laid together for an hour or so before getting up to get ready for the door. we showered and got dressed, then we started on the long drive home.

things were different between us now. on the ride to the hotel it was puppy love. but now, now it's real love. I can see it in his eyes, I know he loves me. I just need to hear him say it.

yeah, I may be crazy for sleeping with him before he told me he loves me. but I love him and it happened. hopefully he'll say it soon.

"Blair?"

"hmm?" I looked up at him with nothing but love in my eyes.

"what're you thinking about?" Anthony asked me.

"nothing really." I smiled at him reassuringly.

he gave me a look that told me he knew I was lying, but I was glad he didn't try and press it out of me.

about a half an hour later he pulled up to my house.

"wha-what're you doing?" I asked nervously.

"bringing you home silly." he kissed the top of my head.

"are you crazy?! my parents could see us!" I lowered myself in my seat.

"no one is going to see us. come on." he opened his door and walked over to my side, opening the door for me.

I looked around making sure no one was around. we would completely screwed if anyone saw us. we quickly kissed goodbye and we hugged fast before I ran up the steps of my house.

I opened the door only to find Chuck standing there with his arms crossed. my heart dropped.

"woah. hey." I said taking a step back.

"well well well. little miss perfect finally fucked up." he said with a smirk.

"what are you talking about? where's mom and dad?"

"they went to the beach house for valentines weekend."

I muttered an "oh" and tried to push past Chuck.

"Chuck, move!" I yelled shoving at his chest.

he laughed in my face, picking me up and putting me on the couch.

"so uh, what's this little thing that you have going on?"

"I don't know what the fuck you're talking about." I scowled, folding my arms over my chest.

"really? so did I just hallucinate you kissing Mr. Raven?" he raised an eyebrow.

"what the fuck? you're spying on me now! Chuck I can't fucking believe you!" I stormed off.

"it would be a shame if anyone found out about this relationship now wouldn't it?"

Chuck was such an asshole. And Anthony is an idiot. I told him not to do that! I knew someone would see! I'm so angry right now.

"Chuck." I warned.

"what?" he laughed loudly.

"please. I know we're not close or anything but you're my brother. just please don't say anything." I started to cry.

"Blair don't do that! God damn it! I'm not promising anything."

I turned away and slammed my door. I pulled out my phone and texted Anthony.

"I'm sorry... I can't do this anymore. goodbye xx Blair"

a good 10 minutes go by before I got a text back.

"what? Blair what happened?"

"I just can't do the sneaking around anymore. I'm done."

and just like that my phone started to ring. I just sat there staring at it, numb. I didn't feel anything. I just felt numb.

"please answer your phone. call me, please!" I left him on read throwing my phone across the room. obviously not hard enough because it's still ringing.

short update I know!! and I know it's been forever!! I've had some serious writer's block, hence the short chapter! I'm so sorry! I'm going to try and update more often now that it's summer vacation and what not. love you guys

xx