A Lie In Church

03 | Pretend that you love me

Winter's POV.

I prepare myself for the party, I am excited at the same time my anxiety is kicking in.

I want to look perfect for this, and also I practice my emotions to look realistic infront of everyone.

I really don't want to push myself to someone that's already have a lover. It's not kind of me but I can't disobey my parents. But I can't stop thinking if they really care for me or they are just using me for their own good.

Knock.... Knock.....

I quickly changed my emotions to sad to happy when I look at the door it was Cloud. What is he doing here?

"I'm going to burst your bubble, Winter. This is not gonna work for me. My girlfriend had no idea what's happening. I don't want to hurt her". Cloud exclaimed. I know that, he's the guy that's annoying but at the same time caring. I wish you are mine.

"I know, it's hard for me to. But I can't say no to my parents". I said feeling guilty.

"Is it your parents or you still have feelings for me?". I was shocked.

I immediately slap him hard while tears rolled down on my cheeks.

"My feelings for you is out of the business, Cloud. I am force just like you. So don't blame me for this!!". My emotions burst, my heart shattered into pieces. I am also a victim he can't blame me.

"I-I am sorry, Winter. Sorry for being insensitive. I don't meant my words, I just can't handle the pressure we're putting in. I was planning to have a break up". He said while sitting down on one of our chairs. He sigh and look at himself through the mirror.

I was shocked, he's putting himself in this situation even if he can hurt his girlfriend with this nonsense.

"You know, you don't have to. Let's make a deal. We will act infront of other people--". He cut my words by standing up. He smirk and look at me.

"Why? So other people can think that I am cheating if ever my girlfriend and I go out?". He said and wiped my tears. He got a point.

"Let's make this professional, Win. Don't hope that I will be a caring and loving husband to you. This is all just work". He open the door and my friends are on the door standing ready to knock.

He excused himself and the girls can't believed that the guy on the other day is my fiance.

"Hey, what's that all about?" While teasing me, raising her eyebrows and walking towards me.

"Ummm, we just talking about the engagement party, nothing less". I said.

"It's odd, your fiancée is too plain when we arrived, I mean no emotions at all. Are you sure, they did not force you two?" Blair honestly said. And Caroline hit her.

I nervously laughed and waved my hand to say no.

"Of course not, it's really our thing to just keep our emotions to ourselves, haha he just having a bad day, that's all". I nervously said. And they nodded.

That's close. But his words kept echoing on my mind, I think I am going crazy.

We walked downstairs and many business men and women are chatting with each other.

I can feel my hands sweating and shaking. My friends greeted my parents.

"I can believe it, my daughter is getting married". My mom falsely wipe her imaginary years and I rolled my eyes. They are great in pretending.

"Yeah yeah, don't be emotional, Mom. You're embarrassing yourself and especially me". I fake my emotions. Of course all of these are fake.

My mom didn't have a chance to speak a word when the host greeted us all.

The party is going to start. It's my life now. It's no turning back.

"Ladies and gentlemen, let's all welcome, the bride-to-be and the groom. Winter and Cloud"

They clapped and Cloud, hold my hand and look at me. Encouraging me to smile. I smiled and walk towards the stage.

The host make the first toast.

He goes next and toasts me and my parents, followed by toasting his own parents. He'll also thank the group for coming to celebrate the our happy news.

"I am greetful for our relationship, it tought me how to love and how to manage my emotions. I was not expecting this to end up with, Winter. I find her annoying and bratty but she has a good heart". Cloud said and that moment I wish it was all true. I wish that exact message where for me.

Why can't he love me?

"I am not expecting to marry a guy that almost perfect, why? He's annoying and arrogant hahahaha. But honestly, I love him almost all my life and I am greatful to start a new chapter of my life with him". I smiled and look at Cloud. He is not looking but I know he knows that my words are true.

The party continue and I excused myself to go to the garden.

I just thought how his girlfriend would react to all of this. It hurts me to hurt another girl. Should I back out? Should I use my voice to neglect all of my suffering? How can I? My parents ruled.

Blair, Caroline and Reign followed me and congratulate my engagement that I really don't want.

"I hope he treated you well, Win. I am wishing your wedding to be full of love and blessings. If you have a problem just call us. You can count on us, always". Reign said and I cried. They are the best!

Caroline and Blaire hug us and I am greatful for the friendship that we build.

After that they excuse themselves to go to ladies room. While me enjoying my glass of wine while looking at the stars.

Hopefully I made the best decision, Grandpa. Please give me a sign.

As I look at the gate, I saw a girl looking at the party inside of our house.

She is crying and my eyes widened and I gasp.

It is?....