Mafia Leader

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Ashley's POV 

Jumping ahead with me in Vegas with Sam and Colby. Talking about Mia'd funeral isn't something I want to talk about because its too hard. I spent time with her parents and then after Dom went back on tour I've been in Vegas since. They have been gone for 2 weeks and I've become very reckless again. All day I sit in my own depression not really eating and at night I party. Which means I relapsed again mixed with drinking. Dom and Adam were expecting to be honest it was a matter of when. I just don't know what to do anymore. Also I haven't gotten help for the grief I feel and my vision I got.m

Kat- Hey Ash 

Ashley- Yeah 

Kat- Someone is here to talk to you 

Ashley- I don't want company right now 

Sam- Ash she's here to help you 

Ashley- Who could possibly help me in times like this I mean.......Amanda 

Amanda- Hi Ashley 

Ashley- Help me with what 

Colby- We thought she could help you with being able to not be so

Ashley- Thanks for the effort but this whole ghost hunting and being a medium is over 

Amanda- Mia told me you would say something like that 

Ashley- You keep her name out of your

She started a voice recording of Mia. Mia was calling me out on my shit. She said something that I hate that she proves she knows me. She told me that she knows damn well with my mind that is constantly going that its hard for me to ignore it. 

Amanda- I know your hurting but I don't think Mia would want you push everything that you love away and I know you love doing art and that you haven't been doing that lately

Ashley- Yeah I haven't but you can't just walk into my life 

Amanda- Stop talking and pay attention to your surroundings. Someone is behind you right now 

Ashley- Bull shit 

Amanda- Mia can't be at piece until you are happy 

Ashley- Stop putting words in my mouth 

When I said that something fell in front of me and it was all my art stuff that I haven't touched in 2 weeks. I did jump back and when I looked up I saw what Amanda was seeing. 

Amanda- She's been with you all this time you just been hurting. Its okay to be sad that you lost Mia but she told me that she doesn't want you to hurt yourself for it

Ashley- And she's upset that I relapsed 

Amanda- There you go 

I finally gave in and since the other 3 are right there they are hearing it for the first time. We talked about it and then she talked me through what I could do different and how to control the visions so it doesn't take over me. The next time I do go she will be with me and help me through it. After we felt like it was a good stopping point I started to get a call. 

Colby- Who is that 

Ashley- No caller ID 

Colby- No way 

Ashley- Hello 

Adam- Hey kiddo 

I went into the other room and talked with him for a while. 

Ashley- Adam I don't want to talk about this 

Adam- Ash its not much to ask for 

Ashley- I know what I'm doing