Mafia Leader

47

Ashley's POV 

After telling them I left something out of my life they didn't know what to say. 

Cindy- What do you mean honey 

Ashley- I don't want to talk about it but do you have a cord that I can connect my iPad to the tv

Dan- Yeah 

We walked back downstairs and I got it all set up. I pulled up my old YouTube channel and seeing it pains me. 

Ashley- So this YouTube channel spent me weeks in contact with Youtube to make sure this channel never made it out to the public and only I can get to it. This one video is something I regret big time and why what I saw last time I was here scared me in therapy again

Dom- Who all knows about this 

Ashley- Mia and Chloe but I don't know what I will do now that Mia isn't here. This isn't something I'm proud of and I kept this from you because it wasn't easy coming from this so all I ask is don't think of me any different because it would really crush me 

Dom- We won't 

I played it and it starts off with me stating why I chose the path I did. I shut my eyes and I felt Adam rub my back. This was at my lowest and the time Mia was most scared for my life. 

Mia in video- You can't be serious Ash 

Ashley in video- What do you ever mean 

Mia in video- Come on why do you get scared off from church then go do this? You're only going to hurt yourself more Ashley. What would you do if your favorite artist Yungblud came walking through that door right now 

Ashley in video- He knows nothing of me Mia. To him I'm just a fan and its the same for you as well

Mia in video- Ash please 

Ashley in video- Don't bring up my fantasy that will never come true. I am too emotional for anyone and people are scared of me Mia because I dress like an emo. Well guess what I am because I lived in hell my whole life might as well serve the king who runs it 

Mia in video- ASHLEY WAIT 

Tears dropped from my face and just thinking back how done I was with life. I am now fighting to stay alive because that fantasy came true. 

Guy in video- Your just in time 

Ashley in video- Like we promised we all do this but if I don't follow through with this then do all the human sacrifices you would like to 

Girl in video- Of course 

I of course hesitated in the moment but when I was about to do it I said I couldn't. 

Guy in video- We knew you were too weak 

Mia- ASHELY YOU OUT THERE ASH 

Guy in video- You swore to keep this spot secret from anyone 

I did choose life over then making a deal with the devil and they were threatening me. It then jumps to me talking more in depth why it was traumatizing for me. I had put the spirit box before I turned it on. 

Ashley- Now you know why me and Mia were always tiptoeing around this topic but now I don't know what to do because I almost made a deal with what was going to be the biggest mistake ever but now they saw that video and I could be killed for stupid depression actions that I've made. Now you also know why weed never was my biggest fear. I'd rather end it all myself but for that scares me

Spirit box- Wait, relax, breathe 

Ashley- I know i messed up but 

Adam- Hey