Finding Myself

Chapter 7

Soriah's POV:

I walked into the empty big house dropping my bag next to the door. "Mom?" I called out, after no response I walked into the kitchen finding a note on the door. Letting me know that my mom was once away for a business trip. My dad was also doing the same thing, both of my parents are very successful people but that caused them to never have time to spend with me. I was basically raised by Ms. Wright, who has been our house keeper since forever.

  Sadly she was on vacation with her family and won't be back until next week. Removing the note I opened the fridge, grabbing a bowl of fruit. I looked around the big and grey kitchen I stood there staring into space. Just thinking about how Majesty has her whole family, being around them and seeing a full family made me kind of jealous, I wish my family would come together and watch a movie together, I wish one of my parents would give in effort and time to create a relationship with me. 

Snapping out of my thoughts I put the bowl in the sink and ran up to my room. Throwing myself on the bed I laid on my back, taking my phone out of my pocket I decided to call my boyfriend but as soon as it ran I was sent to voicemail. Trying again and getting the same results I called Sabrina to see what she was up to. It ran once before she picked up. "hello" she answered in a whisper. I removed the phone from my ear looking at the contact before placing it back, "hello" I scrunched my eyebrows up "why are you whispering?". I waited for her to answer "um i'm just somewhere right now, whats up" she rushed out, I shook my head forgetting the she couldn't see me "nothing just call me later" before I could say goodbye she hung up the phone.

Throwing my phone beside myself I stared up at the white ceiling. This was like a daily routine for me. Come home, eat, call people and think. It's like throughout the day I was distracted from all of the thoughts and feelings but once I was left alone with just the quietness, somehow my mind found a way to go against me and I hate every second of it. It scared me sometimes how my own mind can come up with such things. My boyfriend Kareem was supposed to be my escape and for a while he was. We've been going out since freshman year, so that's almost four  years on and off. Our relationship is very difficult and full of miscommunication but we always work through it but lately something has been off.

We always go through this cycle, one minute we are speaking everyday and all in love but that doesn't last long, because the following week there no communication and we act as if we're tired of each other. When I first met Kareem he was gentle and kind, but as the years went by he became someone else, but yet I still find comfort in him. Friends are always telling me to just leave him but I can't...I love him too much. I felt sometime running down my cheek, wiping my eyes and sitting up. The feeling of my phone ringing made me wipe them even faster.

I saw Majesty's  name pop up creating some type of happiness within me. "hey" she answered  sounding like she was in a good mood. "hey" I responded trying to sound okay but from the looks on her face I can tell she knew something was up. "what's wrong"? she asked. I shook my head "nothing just tired" I responded faking a yawn. She continued to look at me before speaking "okay..If you say so" she said unsure .  "Why did you call me"? Majesty smiled "i just wanted to speak to you" she spoke in a raspy tone. Creating this weird feeling within my body. I ignored the feeling and responded "why I was just with you". She rolled her eyes playfully making me giggle.

Placing my ear pods into my ear I got up walking towards my closet, "where did you go"? I heard her ask me in my left ear. "just picking out my clothes for tomorrow" I simply answered back. The sound of her TV was heard before she spoke again "then put your camera up, I want to see you". I held my shirt in my hand before slowly walking up to my phone "um okay" I mumbled unsurely placing the phone up on my dresser. "now let me see what you're gonna put on". I shook  my head placing a plain black shirt up to my chest and black cargo pants to my legs. She nodded her head "what shoes?" I thought about it before answering "maybe my crocs" I shrugged. "i like it" she responded still looking at me. "okay quit staring" I walked away from the phone.

For the rest of the night Majesty and I stayed up on the phone talking and then staying in silence. I laid there listening to her snore after she fell asleep on me. I checked my phone waiting to see if I had any type of notification from Kareem but sadly I didn't. Even though I know he didn't text me I still checked just in case. Placing my phone  on the charger I turned the other way letting sleep take over.

I woke up to the sound of knocking on my door. Glancing around my room the light coming through the window let me know that it was morning, meaning that it was school. "Come in" I yelled out and in walked Ms. Wright.
I gasped in excitement that she back "omg when did you get back?" I jumped up running into her arms.  She laughed patting my back "I did last night I just saw that you were sleep". I hugged her even tighter, whenever I hug her I imagine it's just like hugging my mom although I don't hug her.

"I'm enjoying this hug but you need to get ready for school" I pulled back laughing "yeah I'll be down in a second". Placing a kiss on my cheek she walked out closing the door behind. I walked into the bathroom and sighed seeing that its going to take me a while to fix my hair. I accidentally fell asleep without my bonnet on like a dumbass. After fixing my curls and finding an outfit I ran downstairs to eat before I have to go.

"You look nice" I heard a voice say I turned around seeing that it was Kareem. "When did you get here?" I ignored his half ass complement. "You're not excited to see me" he smirk walking closer to me with his arms open. Backing away I shook my head "no...especially not when you ignored me last night". He sucked his teeth "I was just busy...you know I'm sorry". Pulling me into a hug he kissed the top of my head and all though I'm mad I wrapped my arms around him.

"Just don't do it again" I pulled back looking into his eyes. "I won't" he replied back, moving his locs out of his face I caressed his face. Its moments like this that reminds me as to why I still date him. "Let's eat before we go" he placed one more kiss on my head before walking into the dinning room. After eating I said my goodbyes to Ms. Wright. Kareem drove us to school and during the ride we barely said a thing.

Maybe I'm just overthinking things like usually, I mean I have to be we were just kissing and hugging before we left out. The most frustrating part is that I never know what goes on inside his head. Causing me to sit and wonder if it's just me or if it's actually something going on. We pulled up in front of the school and before he said anything I got out. I walked into the building ready for this day to be over.
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Hi my loves
I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while life has been kicking me in the ass but I'm back❤️

Kind of a short chapter but I hope you enjoyed see you next chapter 🤍