(Discontinued) Can I really be saved? Dreamnap

Since You've Been Gone

A/n hello again it's Cal!!! I will go on ahead and give a trigger warning for this there will be mentions of self harm and suicidal thoughts, abuse, drug use, and sexual assault, also self image and body issues not eating/ forgetting to eat. I've added another song and I will tell you when to listen to it!!! But if you ever need help or have thoughts of suicide please call someone and get some help or even try and talk to someone you love you're all so amazing and your lives are so precious and important. If anyone ever needs someone to message my dms are always open and I will do what I can to help as well but please if you ever have thought of self harm or suicide please talk to someone or call any of the hotlines. Especially if you're being abused and are in danger please call someone. I love yall lots.

Back around the time Sapnaps dad was in the hospital his mother had relapsed back into drugs mainly using weed starting out then started relapsing back into using meth. Sapnaps father had passed two months after his (Sapnap) 17th birthday. During the last six months his mother had been hitting, throwing, punching, any physical touch she could do to Sapnap. She also verbally, mentally, and emotionally abused him. She'd also sexually assault him if he did something wrong or if she was horny. Sapnap had a lot of self esteem, image and body issues because of his mom.

Sapnaps pov:

Sapnap was in his room currently it had been a day since his father passed. He had to plan a life memorial/ celebration of life for him since his dad said he wanted to be cremated. To which Sapnap would later get a necklace that had his father's ashes in it and he almost never took it off unless he absolutely had to in the future. He was scrolling on his phone until his mom came in she started to yell at Nick "HIS DEATH IS YOUR FAULT NICHOLAS! HE WOULDN'T HAVE DIED IF IT WEREN'T FOR YOU!" She was very heavily crossed currently with weed and meth. Nick flinched and he started to tear up "HIS DEATH WASN'T MY FUCKING FAULT HE DIED BECAUSE OF HE HAD HIS CANCER IN HIS LUNGS MOM!" He yelled back he never did that but his emotions got the best of him. What happened next after he yelled at her was he got a smack to the face and a glass bottle smashed on his head 'fuck she's also drinking great... This fucking hurts so much fuck!" he thought to himself. "Don't fucking dare talk back to me and yell at me ever again Nicholas..." she spat at him and then left his room slamming the door shut.

After she left all Nick could do was cry really hard. He grabbed his earbuds and hooked them up to his phone with Bluetooth. He started to play "1-800-273-8255 by Logic, Alessia Cara and Khalid." (now is where you play the song) he cried even harder and he got up grabbing razors blades from his bathroom.

He continued to cry as blood dripped from his wounds. Curled up on his bed and eventually had fallen asleep.

Dreams pov:

It was the next day and Nick was still asleep but Dream had decided to come and check on Nick. He of course had a spare key to get into their house since their families were close. Dream unlocked the door and walked in seeing Nick's mom asleep on the couch with a syringe in her hand. He quietly crept upstairs and walked to Nick's room opening the door. He saw the condition of Nick his best friend and started to tear up running over to him "Nicholas." he shook him awake in a panic he noticed the razor blade next to him and panicked more "Please Nick wake up!" he said louder and had tears going down his cheeks. Nick flinched awake almost smacking Clay "S-sorry..." he said softly to Clay. To which the older male immediately pulled him into a hug "Stop don't apologize I was fucking worried you died asshole don't ever do that to me again please..." he spoke as tears continued to spill down his cheeks 'fuck I thought he was fucking dead please don't do that again ever...' Clay thought to himself as he felt the younger hug him back tightly."I'm okay..." The younger said gently to the older. "no hun we need to go get you cleaned up and bandaged up." Clay shook his head at Nick knowing he was going to protest. "No I don't want to..." he muttered. "I will pick you up you little shit." Clay teased.