coffee & sugar - lee know

twelve

i slowly grabbed the blanket out of the closet and shut the doors before turning around and walking back over to minho. i unfolded the blanket and sat down next to minho, both of us fixing the blanket over ourself before both going to grab a slice of pizza. i took my plate and placed it on top of my lap. i tried to remain composed but let me tell you, it's very hard. so i started to pay extra attention on the movie we were watching or well, i tried to at least. listen, it's very hard when he's sitting right next to you.

"nabi, you're so stiff, relax." minho says, interrupting my thoughts.

"oh, um sorry." i say as i take a quick discreet deep breath in and out, able to relax a bit more.

<3

it was like thirty, maybe forty-five minutes into the movie and i currently had my feet up on the couch as i unconsciously sat closer to minho than before. listen, i could handle horror and like, i was the one to suggest this movie but it's been awhile, okay?

"nabi, come here." minho said and i glanced over at the boy's voice who i hadn't heard since the beginning of the movie. he then moved his leg and put it behind me before putting the other one on the other side of me, "lay down." minho said and i immediately nodded before i stopped nodding and slowly got on top of him, laying my head down on his chest. i then felt his hands rest on my back and I felt myself tense up again. his hands then slowly started to rub my back as we both focused on the movie once again, or at least i tried to. what the fuck is going on.

my heart was practically pounding out of my chest and he definitely could feel it but he didn't say anything. all i could focus on though was how his chest slowly rise and fell as he breathed. okay, that sounds creepy but my head was literally on his chest so how could i not?

<3

we laid like that until the movie finished. once it finished though i felt like i couldn't move. maybe it was because i wanted to lay like this forever but i think it was actually just because i hadn't moved in a while.

i decided it was time to move so i lowkey shot up from off the couch and stood up, brushing my hair out of my face with my fingers.

"do you mind if we clean up?" i ask.

"sure." minho says as he gets off the couch as well and goes to grab his trash. i grab mine and throw it in the pizza box and hold it open so that minho could do the same.

once both of our trash is inside i head for the door, "i'm gonna go throw this out." i say and minho nods before walking towards me. he walks so close to me that our bodies are pressed against one another.

"you're in the way." he says and my mouth drops open slightly for a second before nodding and moving out of the way, watching as he slides on his shoes. i slip on my slides and open my door.

"you don't have to come." i say and minho just walks past me.

"shhh." he shushes me as he grabs the box from me, "where's the garbage?" minho asks and i just nod before heading to the garbage bins.

we walk out into the alley by my apartment and i lead him to the garbage my building used. minho throws the cardboard pizza box into the garbage before we both walk back inside.

as we're walking back to the apartment minho stops walking and i stop as well, looking back at him.

"do you want me to go?" minho asks.

i couldn't think of what the good response would be, "i mean you can, like i don't want you to but like if you don't wanna stay then go but like, i just thought we'd hang out a bit more but that doesn't matter. go if you wanna leave it's fine." i ramble.

"shhhh," minho shushes me again as he steps closer to me, "you're cute, i won't go." he tells me before placing his hand on my back and keeping it there as we continue walking back to my apartment.

we walk into my bedroom and i sit down on the bed, "what do you wanna do?" i ask minho who's just standing by my dresser. "you can come on my bed, if you want." i say, maybe he felt uncomfortable? minho just nods before he walks over to me and sits on the bed next to me.

"wanna smoke?" he asks.

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minho sits on my desk chair as i sit on my window still by my open bedroom window. he takes out his cigarette pack and shakes it a little before opening it and taking out a cigarette. minho hands it to me and i quietly thank him as he takes out one for himself as well. i place my cigarette in my mouth and he pulls out his lighter from his jacket, both of us still in our school uniforms. he flicks it on and brings it close to my cigarette, lighting it. i take in some of the smoke before taking the cigarette out of my mouth and exhaling the smoke out the window. i watch as minho lights his as well and takes a hit from it, breathing it out the window as well.

"when'd you start smoking?" minho asks.

"in ninth grade." i answer.

"same." minho says and i just nod in response before taking another hit.

an: just so you know, this isn't promoting smoking or whatever, especially not towards minors. i'm not gonna say to not do it though because at the end of the day, that's ur choice. love you!!