"Ny..come on, you know I love you like really." I felt my boyfriend wrap his arms around me softly. I quickly pushed him away as I felt my breathing become heavy and tears stream down my cheeks. "Amiri, you know that ever since I met you I've been alone. My family not even supporting me in college, I've been working nonstop, I still have to turn my work in one time while I have been having sleepless nights." I move away from him and try toss his hoodie harshly at him though I was so weak from all the crying.
I was now sitting on my room floor trying to figure out what just happened. I found out my boyfriend was fucking my only friend in college while he was talking to so many other girls. The thought of everything caused me to cry even more. All the nights I sat there telling myself that he actually loved me when he was in my best friend's bedroom..I never would have expected this college year to go downhill.
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After Amiri and I's breakup, everything was just like when I started college. I was lonely and I never opened up to anyone around me. When I started hanging out with Amiri, he was known by a few people for his music so he was a bit famous. I started to become cool with his friends while we dated as many people knew that we were together even though I was private about my dating life. But now I was back to being alone.
I was glad I was able to work on myself and get back on my feet. Working many hours to get the pain off my mind was making an horrible effect on my mental health since I wasn't getting enough sleep. Once the pandemic hit, I was able to work on myself more and I started to get in contact with my twin sister again. She moved out of my mom's house at 16 and stayed with my dad so I barley spoke to her but she ended up moving near my college so I hang out with her all the time. She helped me move into my own apartment across from campus.
Now it was my last year of college and I have been getting used to it. This week, I had a few exams so I have been studying a lot and since I'm not a big coffee drinker..these cappuccinos have been saving my life. I would say cappuccinos over coffee anytime or any day cause those are bomb. "Thank you." I smile at the lady behind the register and take the cup before making my way to one of the studying rooms. "Yo ma, you tryna study with me?" I turn around to see a familiar boy smiling at me. Keith. "I'm good." I mumble and continue walking but I still feel his presence behind me.
Of course that nigga followed me all the way to the study room but I tried to brush it off. "You and miri little break up did you good..you fine as hell now." I hear him say as I roll my eyes and put my books on the table before turning around. "You got two point two seconds to get out my face before I call Brittany, cause she been looking for you." I say as he widens his eyes and makes his way out the room. From what I heard, Brittany and Keith used to be sneaky links but she's been getting a little possessive. That's what he get hanging with a white girl who considers herself a negro and calls her style 'cyber-ghetto.'
"Girl you funny as hell." I look up and see Kayla cracking up. "I'm guessing you seen Brittany storming down the hall screaming 'Keith! Keith! Who that hoe you was dancing with on Kobe story!'" I listen to Kayla's impressions of Brittany and start laughing. "Hell yeah, she gotta stop cause this getting out of hand." I say as I laugh and Kayla nods. "Keith was shaking in his boots when he heard Brittany." I laugh louder and shake my head before getting my book out my bag to write down my notes and study.
"Niggas be sleeping in here now?" I hear someone's voice as I open my eyes and quickly sit my head up. "Oh shit, I fell asleep." I mumble and look at my phone to check the time, it was now 6:45. It would be my black ass to fall asleep in this room..at least I got my notes done. I started to pick up my books as I look over and see Amiri and Shaio looking at me. "Oh it's Ny'Asia." I hear Shaio say as I wave and get my bag from the side of the chair. "Bye Shai." I get up and walk out the room.
It was surprising to see Amiri on campus on one of these days. From what everyone has been talking about he has been very busy with music but somehow remains to pass all the exams and turn in work on time cause..I can't even do that and I'm not an artist. I tried my best not to pay him any mind and he seemed to not pay me any mind which l didn't really care for. When I finished making my ramen, I put it in a bowl and sat down on the couch, beginning to eat it before I got a call from Kayla. "Hey Ny'Asia..you going to the party?" I hear Kayla say cheerfully as I shake my head in the camera. "Fuck you mean no..you didn't go to the last one so come on girl!" I hear her go on as I laugh and continue to say no. "You know what..I'm coming over." She says before hanging up. This finna be a long ass night.
I really don't know what had gotten into me when Kayla came over. Now I was getting in the shower and changing my clothes. "The next party that happens, I'm definitely not going..okay?" I mumble while putting on my dress as she looks at me and shakes her head. "Yeah, okay." Kayla says behind her as I hit her arm. "Damn, chill." She screams as I laugh and get my purse. "You ready to go now? Cause you taking mad long..and remember you wanted to go to this party." I say as she quickly follows behind me and we go to my car.
