Chapter 5
Zayn
She left? She ran out again. Leaving me more confused than ever. God.. That was amazing. I needed more of her. I’ve kissed a lot of girls and none of them ever kissed me like that. I don’t even know what came over me when I kissed her. It just happened. An out of body action. I rubbed my face, trying to grab a hold of reality. I more than fancied Ronnie. I really liked her.
This was more than an attraction. It was apparent in the sparks. Every time I touched her, saw her face; I knew. I wanted to know why she ran away. I had to talk to her. I put my hands on the floor and felt a cold paper underneath my hand. I looked down and it was her homework. I picked it up and stood. I needed to find Ronnie. I walked out of the library and looked around.
I saw her familiar brown hair turn the corner. I ran after her and caught up. “Ronnie!” I yelled. She froze. She didn’t turn around or say anything. I put my hand on her shoulder and she looked over. “Why do you keep running away?” i said with a smile. She coughed. “I don’t know” her voice lowered. “You left your paper.” I held it up. “And I wanted to talk about what happened back there.” I said. She bit her lip and stayed quiet. She didn’t feel it? Her face showed no emotion but she was hiding something. I know it. “Ronnie..” I tried to get her attention. “Hmm?” she turned her head to face me but didn’t look directly into my eyes. I focused on her face. “We kissed back there” I stated. She looked nervous and her cheeks grew pink. I placed my hand on her cheek. They were hot. “Aren’t you going to say something?” Her eyes grew wide as she looked behind me. I turned around and saw a guy with dirty blonde hair. Who was this bloke? His eyes were glued to Ronnie. I felt rage inside of me. I clenched my fists and looked back at Ronnie. She looked petrified.
“Am I interrupting something here?” the dirty blonde spoke. He checked Ronnie out and a evil grin arose. I tried to remain calm. “Actually, yes.” I stated. “I’ll get out of you way then.” He said, keeping his lock on Ronnie. “I’ll see you later, Ronnie.” He walked up to her and kissed her cheek. He smiled and walked away. Why is he touching my girl like that? I mean, she’s not mine. I didn’t like this at all. I felt jealousy through my veins. Throughout my whole entire body.
“Who was that?” I looked at Ronnie, hoping she would answer me. “Just some guy” She said. She was a terrible liar. I could see right through her. “That didn’t look like some guy.” I clenched my jaw. Her voice shook, “It’s nothing.. I have to go.” She walked away. I sighed in frustration. You have got to be kidding me.
I walked out of the school pissed off. The same bloke was outside on his phone. I wanted to punch him for looking at Ronnie like that. I knew he did something to her. I could see it when she looked at him.
He was looking at me. “Can I help you with something?” I asked with a stern tone. He laughed. I did not like this lad at all. “Why do you look so angry? Lighten up kid.” he said with a smile. I wanted to punch that smile off his face. “And who are you to tell me what to do?” I said with confidence. “Ryan King.” he smiled again. “How do you know Ronnie?” I asked. He laughed. I was going to be direct. “So you’re the new boyfriend, huh?” I looked at him and shook my head. “Actually no” I stated. “But you like her” he said as he stared me down. I stayed quiet. “Ronnie… she’s something special.” A smirk grew on his face. “I think you have some competition” he said. “And who would that be?” I asked. “Me.” he said as he walked away towards his car.
I mocked him. Me. Ronnie would never want an arsehole like him. Would she?
Ronnie
What was he doing back? I think I’m going to have an panic attack. Why is this happening? I thought he left upstate. God this is so bad. I hated him. I hate him. He ruined my life! Because of him I lost everything. Why am I lying to myself? I love him. I loved him with everything in me. I felt alive with him and without him I never felt more dead. But with Zayn things were different. Which is why I had to stay away from him. Things would be worse with him. I’m not going to let myself like Zayn. He’s a cool guy but I don’t want him.
Seeing Ryan gave me chills. I loved him and hated him, but I could never figure out which I felt more. I know he’s up to no good with me. The smile he gave me made me feel uneasy.
I did miss him and I hated that I did. I hated a lot of things that followed the thought after Ryan. There were so many things I wanted to say with no way to say it. I’m too damaged.. scared.
I wanted to go home. But where I lived hasn’t felt like home in a long time.
Ryan
I raised the volume higher as I bumped my head to the music. It was good to be back home. I left things unsettled. I feel big things ahead and I will cause them. I smiled.
That British guy wanted Ronnie. I knew it the very second I saw them. He got so angry when I was there. I smiled. I solemnly did because he wanted Ronnie, I was going to get her. Why? Because I can and I like the challenge. I always win, always.
When I dated Ronnie it was because of the bet. But I have to admit, I did fall in love with her. I didn’t mean for it to happen. But it did. She is amazing, everything about her is simply perfect. But I’m a dick, always will be. It’s in my nature to act like this and I can’t help it. I hurt people. She should have seen it coming. I didn’t deserve her anyways. Did i feel bad? Yeah. That’s why I left. I did forget. It’s easy for me to move on, no matter how much I love a girl.
I couldn’t wait to make this guy’s life a living hell and to get what was mine. Getting Ronnie would be easy. I know she loves me. It’s hard to resist Ryan King. I was driving past a familiar street when I saw her.
Ronnie was walking on the sidewalk alone. I drove to the side and slowed down. I lowered the window and looked at her. “Get in, Ronnie.” I looked up. It was cloudy. She stayed quiet and kept walking. “Come on, it’s going to rain.” I said. She stopped and turned to face the car. I unlocked the door and she opened it. She got in without a word. I smiled at her. “You’re not going to say anything to me?” I asked. She crossed her arms and looked forward. I drove faster and made my way to her house. The ride was quiet. I kept glancing at her. She was fighting me, but like I said I always win. “You look good, Ronnie.” I glanced over to her and she didn’t say anything. I was pulling up to her street. “Don’t be like that, babe.” I said. She turned and faced me with a blank look. She got out and looked over the window. “Don’t call me babe” she said as she slammed the door.
Angry Ronnie was always hot. I want her.
I looked at my phone and saw that Britt was calling. I picked up, “What?” “Is that how you’re going to talk to me?”, she said with her snotty voice. She irritated me so much but she was a good fuck. “That’s how I talk to everyone, babe.” I said, smoothly. “You’re still coming over, right?” she asked in a hopeful tone. “On my way right now” I said with a smile. With that I hung up before she could say anything else. I don’t have any interest in Brittney other than sex. She knew that. Everyone did.
I pulled up at Brittney’s house and parked the car. I walked up the front door and knocked twice. She opened the door wearing just her bra and underwear. Slut. I walked in and pulled off my shirt. “Just one round.” I stated. She smiled and pulled me close, closing the door behind us.
Zayn
I don’t know why I’m so pissed off. That guy is a dick. He’s not going to touch Ronnie. I have to protect her. I wanted to know what he had to with her. I don’t trust him at all. I’m going to keep her away from him as much as I can. I’ve only known her for two days and I already kissed her and developed these strong feelings for her. But Ronnie is special. She’s the kind of girl you never want to let go. The girl you could see yourself with for the rest of your life.
I wanted Ronnie, badly. When she saw Ryan she looked scared. That look made me want to hold her and comfort her. God I can’t stop thinking about her. I couldn’t leave now. Ronnie made me forget about the divorce. I even forgot about feeling homesick. She did that.
I had to have her. I needed to make her mine, but I know something is going to get in the way of that. She’s going to realize that I’m a great guy. I could treat her right and show her how perfect she is. I can see the way she thinks of herself. I can tell by the way she acts. She always acts so unsure of her actions and the things that she says. I wanted to know why? or what caused that. I want her to trust me, to let her in. That’s the goal. Ronnie James is going to be mine.
