Chapter 7
Zayn
I was walking down the street with Brandon shortly behind. I couldn’t take the anger I felt. She’s with him. I know she is. But why? He’s an arsehole, he’s not right for her. She’s lovely, intelligent, funny, compassionate. Ronnie’s too good for him, but she doesn’t see it. I shoved my hands into my pockets and hit the pavement hard. I wanted her too see that, but more than that I wanted her to feel that way about me. Brandon called out for my name. Ignored him. He said something that caught my attention.
“You like her don’t you?” He asked. I turned around. I can’t like her anymore. She’s with him. So I should just lie to him. “What? No. She’s just a friend” I tried to say as assuring as possible. He squinted his eyes and looked at me. I turned away.
“You like her. That’s why you walked away like that. How didn’t I see this sooner?” He said as he brought his hands over his head. “So it’s not obvious? I asked, hopeful. “Well now that I notice, it kind of was” he said. Well that’s just perfect. I hope Ronnie didn’t notice because that would be terrible.
“Just don’t tell her, alright?” I looked at him. “I wouldn’t do that to my best friend, or mate shall I say. We left my car in the parking lot.” he said.
“You mean that ugly jeep” I said with a laugh. It wasn’t ugly but you could tell he got it from some middle aged man that wanted to get rid of it. At least he had a car. “Don’t talk about Sally like that. She’s not much of a beauty but she’s always been there” he said confidently.
He asked me for a ride home but I denied. I needed to walk. I decided to take a shortcut. I didn’t know this town very well and I could feel myself getting lost. I heard a familiar voice. I followed it and saw two shapes ahead. At first it sounded like they were arguing. Then I realized it was Ronnie and Ryan. I stayed beside a car. It would have looked like I was spying on them like a creep, so I didn’t make a sound. That’s when I saw it. He kissed her. The worst thing about it, was she didn’t pull away. She looked like she enjoyed it. Like she wanted him to kiss her again. I got this bad pain in my chest. I couldn’t watch this any longer. Ryan soon walked away and so did I. I didn’t turn back. I walked and for the first time in the past few days, I didn’t want to think about Ronnie James.
I decided to stay home the next day. I couldn’t deal with Brandon questioning me what’s wrong. Brandon is a great lad. We only met yesterday and we trust each other. I feel interesting things ahead with him. Ronnie made me look forward to school. But now that she’s with Ryan, I have to forget about her. Knowing Ronnie, I would never think she was interested in that bloke. She doesn’t take shit from anyone but she lets him manipulate her. This is all from what I see. But is this what she really wants? I don’t see how it is.
I realized if I wanted to get over the fact that I can’t have Ronnie, I’ll have to stay away from her. I have first period with her. I know that will be hard but any other time I’ll have Brandon to distract me. I’ll have to tell him soon about what witnessed, but right now I wanted to get the thought out of my head. It hurt to think about it, but I couldn’t stop thinking about it. Of her.
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It’s been a couple months and I’ve been improving in all my classes. I’ve always been smart but now I’m actually doing my work. I made a few more mates since coming here. I met them through Brandon. Brittney still stares and from time to time she comes up with an excuse to talk to me. I think its kind of cute. Shes not that bad, a bit bland but not bad. I don’t know her well enough to make my judgments yet. Nothing has changed drastically except the fact that I no longer speak to Ronnie. I only see her in first period. After that she disappears. Over the past months I did realize that I fell in love with her. I couldn’t help it. Something about her just stuck with me and my thoughts. I didn’t know if I still did. I really hope I didn’t since she was now with Ryan. They’re officially a couple as Brandon says. If it comes from Brandon, it’s 98% true. I missed her. I knew that well.
