Don't Go (Oli Sykes)

Chapter 40

** Nicole's P.O.V. **

I woke up on the couch and I was laying right next to Evan. Well, actually I was pretty much on top of Evan, my head was resting on his chest that was slightly moving up and down because of his breathing. His arm was resting around my waist. He was still sleeping soundly, we must have fell asleep during the last Scary Movie we watched last night. I started blowing at the hair that was covering his face trying to wake him up. His nose started to itch. A few seconds after he finally opened his eyes and smiled.

"Well, good morning." He said with a deep morning voice. I couldn't help but smile back.

"Good morning to you too. Did you sleep well?" I asked him wondering if he felt uncomfortable however didn't move to wake me up.

"Better than ever, I guess we both fell asleep last night. Did you?" He said and chuckled. I nodded.

"Yeah, I felt pretty comfortable being on top of you." I said and laughed.

"Well, that's good. I kinda want to get off the couch, so would you kindly move please. He said. I nodded and slowly got up.

"You cooking for me this morning?" I asked in a hopeful tone. He slowly shook his head and got up heading towards the kitchen.

"Fine, it's only fair. You cooked yesterday and you will be having a very long day today." He said as he got the necessary to cook. Everything came back to my head, I was going to see them today. I started to feel all the stress pile up inside my body. I couldn't do it, I just can't go back there. It's too much.

"Oh yeah... about that, can we not go today, maybe tomorrow?" I asked very slowly. He turned around and looked surprised.

"What do you mean? You need to go back there. You need to see how Crimson is doing. They need you Nicole." He said like a parent would when the child did something wrong.

"But I don't want to. I feel so stressed out about everything. I'm panicking inside Evan, I can't. I don't even think if I will be able to look at them in the face, think about speaking..." And right there I broke down. Tears were flowing down my face. Evan came closer and hugged me. One hand went around my waist and the other was in my hair.

"Shh.. it's ok Nicole. Everything will go fine. If you want I came come with you for moral support." He said slowly in a calming tone. I slowly shook my head.

"No, it won't. I left them there wi-with the blood. I left my blood on the bathroom floor. I abandoned them there. I should have at least asked somebody to take me somewhere instead of getting my stuff in leaving. I'm so stupid, I'm just a dumb human error." I said while my tears were slowly soaking his shirt. He slowly stroke my hair as an attempt to calm me down.

"Why are you saying this about yourself? You're not stupid or a human error. You're wonderful Nicole. They will forgive you, anybody would go through something like that if it happened to them. Don't worry about it. Just sit down so I can give you your breakfast." I sat down while Evan finished cooking and brought two plates of omelette to the table. I smiled and began stuffing my mouth with the food. After we both finished eating we went to get ready for the ride back to the tour. Once we were both ready, we decided to finally start going.