HER

Don't forget me

No this is the part where people think that we have a happy ending but sadly its not that easy only because i was in a different state than her, see i am in Ohio and she is in Florida. But the next day char had to work and i had nothing to do so i was bored as hell, and i wanted to text her but i didn't want to sound to clingy and make her irritated so i waited and texted her while she was in still work finally and said '' 3 hours till i get to talk to you'' then i waited for a reasponse and then i heard the ding on my phone and honestly i got anxiety picking up my phone, then i read ''awe, i will call you when get out'' that made me smile and yes she did call me when she got home and it made me happy and she was consistent and she was always so sweet.

The next few days she made me happy but i was also sad and it was only because she was so far away and we couldn't hang out like i wanted to do and it made me upset because i couldn't be there if she was sad or stressed. But the next conversation we had was nice and i was happy, but here was the thing about char, she never said i love you to anyone and including her ex girlfriend but it wasnt out of hate or anything like that it was just because she didn't find anyone that she could trust with her heart yet and honestly i couldn't blame her because people dont care about other people now theses days.

Then it came the phone call that i was gonna be scared about only because i almost fucked up and it was because i was so used to telling her how my day was going and she was so sweet and she would always cheer me up if i was down and if im being honest i was having a ''okay'' day and i told her about how i was feeling and she was helping me through it, then she started making jokes so i would feel better and i laughed and said ''i love you'' then there was a akward silence and it filled my whole room and then i stared freaking out in my head. then she said ''hang on one second'' then her phone went mute, so then my head started spazzing because i was about to loose the one person that cared for me all because i said the 3 words that i knew i shouldn't say. At this point i was almost certain that she would stop talking to me and i was scared because i really liked this girl and i thought i could have a chance.

then i heard her unmute her phone and i seen the smile on her face and there was a second pause then she said the words ''i love you to'' and let me tell you my whole mind was blown but honestly i was scared if she really meant it or not because i kept thinking ''did she just saying it because i said it?'' ''or did she say it because she felt akward?.'' But i couldn't help but to smile because she had the biggest smile on her face.

later that night we were on the phone again and i knew the subject would come up and i was just waiting for her to do it, and like i thought it did and i was scared that it was gonna be bad and she was gonna say she didn't feel the same but the subject never came back up so i left it alone because i was not trying to fuck up anymore than i already did.

Now let me tell you that we were friends on instagram and tik tok but she didn't have facebook or snapchat and i didnt know why and she told me that it was just waist of time and she really didn't care for it and i mean all people are different but i really didn't care that much either. anyways she was basically the girl i wanted and i was not gonna stop until i had her and before yall start say omg Kristy that is so toxic and weird and crazy, listen i alresdy know but i dont exactly mean it in that way i just mean i really wanted her but if it came to her not wanting me i would understand, but not gonna lie i would be pretty hurt and its only because i love talking to her and her putting me in a good but my fav this about her is her personality and normally people look at someone for there body and looks but honestly i didnt really care about that only because i care if they treat me right.