THE SCAR THAT NEVER BLED

|END UP LIKE OUR PARENTS|

November 13th 1977

By early dawn i got woken up by the sound of birds chirping and the sound of a train horn in the distance.

"Morning" Robin says

I groaned out as I lifted my lower self off the hard wood, damn sleeping on his hard floor made me miss my bed. I rubbed my eyes.

I checked my watch and it reads 9:34am.

"What are doing up so early?"

"I've been up since almost 5am, sleeping on a old wooden bridge is not my ideal bed"

"Me either" Robin grabbed my hand and pulled me up from the bridge planks. As I got up on my feet again I was face to face with him. Our hands were still intertwined, against each other's chest.looking into those brown eyes i had a sudden, giddy roiling in the pit of the gut. It felt like being on a rollercoaster and having your stomach drop. Suddenly I remember the last time I had feelings like this for someone. I snap out of the trance, I flipped my hair back and back up from him and thanked him.

I began to walk away, towards back to town. Robin followed behind

Love and I were tricky,Yes I want to be in a loving relationship with somebody I've always dreamed about being with somebody romantically.But it felt like love wasn't a big fan of me. It almost felt like how I looked like in people's eyes was this wicked ugly witch that no one could ever love.People say falling in love is good but falls is such a sad word if you really think about it. Falls are never good. You fall behind, you fall down on the ground, you can even fall to your death.

I remember when I was 5 my mom told me something I will never forget

"When you make someone fall in love with the darkest parts of you, there's nothing you can do to scare them away"

I probably blame it on my quietness the most. If were to act in a movie I would always be the background character. People would phase me as a transparent color,the one that always blends into the crowd, the one that never gets noticed or taken time into. I constantly feel like that one box filled with Halloween decorations on the top shelf in the basement that only gets noticed once a year.

Growing up watching Cinderella, The Little mermaid and beauty and the beast memorized at the love they shared. How easy they clicked with each other. I see the same thing down the halls at school. Couples walking to class together, watching the glaze in their eyes looking at their partner.Then well the intimate ones which I wasn't a fan of. I feel this lonely empty feeling deep down in my heart, thinking 'why couldn't that be me' having somebody I love by my side, on my side for once loving me for how I am
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Suddenly Robin tapped me on the shoulder I turned around

"Look, Mar it's a gas station"

"Did that gas station just appear out of nowhere" I giggled

"I guess we passed it last night and didn't see it" Robin adds

As we were walking up towards the gas station it was named grab n go

This gas station was a known teenager go-to hang out spot, at lunchtime teenagers in the summer walked here which was surprising since it was kinda far from neighborhoods