Short Stories

Feelings

Honestly, you barely upset me. But whenever you do, it does impact me a lot. I don't know why but I've been very moody lately and small things, such as a joke upset me. I have no clue if you don't understand how I feel or are just trying to ignore it and go with the flow.

I'm trying, really. Though it is pretty difficult for an emotional person like me. Nowadays I've been fragile. There is a lot of time when I get depressed for no reason. Yet I keep quiet and try to go along like it's a normal day. I don't want to bother you more than I already have.

I love you so much yet I sometimes want to punch you. You're a smart guy but at the same time, stupid with emotions. I sometimes noticed that you can't read the room which is why I need to be blunt. I don't know if you're doing it on purpose at this point because it's so hard to read you.

Sometimes it doesn't even seem like you're happy with me. It seems like I'm just laughing by myself while you just listen to me like I'm a lunatic. I just want us to feel mutual.

It upsets me that you don't have any opinion on anything. I want to hear your voice as well and I want to hear what you're thinking yet I'm here again rambling on my own like usual. My fear is that I'll run out of things to tell you and you'll grow bored of me.

It upsets me whenever you always spelled my name wrong. I've noticed that before we were even together. When we were still friends. You always spelled my name wrong, though I didn't mention anything. It made me sadder knowing that I always knew your name. I never forgot your name and how to spell it even when we haven't talked in a while. Because you are part of my core memory. Because you are important to me. Because I love you. However, I guess I'm not that important in your eyes. You always remember other people's names but mine.

It upsets me that you always said you'll read my writing but never did. I... I'm slowly losing passion and confidence with my writing because of that honestly, You could've just said you weren't interested from the start. I got my hopes high, anticipating your comment on my writing, yet it never came. I've already sent it to you three times at this point. From now on, I won't be telling you anything about my writing anymore since you've shown that you aren't interested. Please, be honest next time. It just breaks my heart.

It upsets me that you barely show feelings towards me. I know that that's you being you. But it still does upset me. I just don't tell you since you'll say sorry and say you'' try harder or something. I just want you to know the problem by yourself. I just want you to open your damn eyes and see how I feel.

I'm upset at everything and at everyone.

But at the end of the day. I still love you so much. But just because I love you it doesn't mean you don't break my heart.

Though always know that I do appreciate all your efforts. I know you're trying and all but of course me being me. I'll still be upset. I love you and I see all that you're giving it your all. I apologize that I'm so needy. But I hope someday you'll love me as much I love you.