So mad so easily
The kinda of mad you feel it in your hands
and arms
The kind where it itches at
Your bones until you act
But you never do
You never act cause you know what you will do
Scream, shout, hurt yourself, others break stuff
So very sad
The type of sad where you almost feel hollow
The type of sad where there almost is no sad
The day of a loved ones death kinda sad
Yet, I've lost no one, no one but myself
Highly unfortunate I know,
However I don't
I don't know anything anymore
The only fact that stands high is I'm no longer me and even in that I'm not sure
Over the line of jealous
It's human nature to be jealous
It comes out of fear of losing, or
The greed of wanting
Losing is more or less forgiven
More than ever wanting
Why should I feel bad for wanting something
That would make me happier
Even if it affects someone else
Being non-sympathetic
Is normally something people worry about
People tend to worry if you have no sympathy
But is it really that bad
Is it that bad that I feel if you give me nothing mean you mean nothing to me
Maybe it is bad
Fear is something we all feel,
Even if you say you don't
People feel fear for different reasons
I fear you leaving because of my jealousy
I fear of losing you to them
It feels like you smile and laugh more with them
Maybe I should just go
Embarrassment is not for the thin skinned
It comes in many forms
One I deal with is due to my lashing out
I never mean to but a cup can only hold so much
I do get embarrassed when I lash out, instant regret
I'd take it back, but you can't really touch the past like that
