Though you never had much to do with me
I'll always miss the little you did
I've sat and thought more on it than I should've ever
I guess there was never a connection
I've always wondered what I meant to you
A friend? A stranger? Somebody to pass the time?
I tried
I tried you
I tried for the smallest spark but it never happened
I guess it's half my fault as well
Maybe I was to much for you
Too much for your head
I would've appreciated if you told me
I feel like I lost something I never had
I looked for it everywhere but I never did find it
It hurt me that I never found it
It hurt me in ways I can't speak of
I can't speak of them due to not knowing why it hurt
It's always confused me why seeing you with others hurt
Seeing you with friends
Maybe it's cause it's what we could have been
It'll never happen now
I still think of my birthday
We spent a day together a couple of days before it
It felt so awkward to me yet so peaceful
Something I'll never have with you again
It'll forever be nothing
I know it doesn't mean anything to you
But oh to me
It meant the world
I craved it
Maybe it was entirely me
My fault
Maybe I craved it to much and you could tell
Could I have come off as too much for you
Too much for you to handle
Maybe I was to much of a "kid" to you
I guess I will never know
Unless I asked you
But that's to much for me
To much for me to deal
Nobody knows what you could say
I'm too emotionally weak for it
Knowing you though you wouldn't say much
You never did
I never knew anything more than the community facts
The stuff you told everyone
I wonder if I did stuff differently
Maybe it would have worked
If I tried harder
Tried less even
There's no way
It just wasn't something to be
It was never a thing to exist
It wasn't meant to be
It wasn't meant
It was never meant to be yours
To be ours
To be mine
It was never meant to be at all
