I've been staring at windows
Been seeing the wind blows
Wond'ring where you go
In debt for my choices
Thorns on red roses
Wond'ring where you go
Warm tears on pillows
Endless sleep poses
Wond'ring where you go
Letter on the kitchen
A pair of broken pencil
The fireplace turned to snow
Passport from your jacket
New foreign address
Why did you have to go?
Mom said I'd be alright
You didn't even saw me
walk the stage that night
Why did you have to go?
Since then, I stopped
I knock my head against the wall each whisp'ring thought of you the night before
Still wishing you a safe and restful flight
You are the words in every book,
the eyes in every face
My hands can't even flip the second page but once again I hold on tight
I keep staring at windows
Keep seeing the wind blows
Wond'ring where you go
(It's funny how you're far from here
They always say I'm just like you)
In debt for my choices
Thorns on red roses
Wond'ring where you go
(But do they know 'bout how I used to ask
"Why's there a stranger in our gates?")
Warm tears on pillows
Endless sleep poses
Wond'ring where you go
(I didn't even know your name when I was three, how much more who you are?)
Letter on the kitchen
A pair of broken pencil
The fireplace turned to snow
(You're never here with me
in each graduation day)
Passport from your jacket
New foreign address
Why did you have to go?
(In three attempts you always failed
your eldest child with the exact
same rate of how you failed the bar)
Mom said, I'd be alright
The only thing she said a million times
Why did you have to go?
Since then, I stopped
No more tears to dim the eye, I saw
The view in front this rocking chair's
now buckets full of snow
And so I thought
That would be too much for
a loveless son like me to know
Wherever you did go
— theptwelve
July 6, 2020
