One Rule (Sasuke x OC)

Chapter 17: Fears

That night everything was different..

Waking up on morning after I saw Sasuke sleeping soundly. A smile creeped on my face. His face was so peaceful. Nothing like the day before. 

Maybe it was me who made a peace inside him..

Maybe he was feeling the same way..

Maybe there's a hope for me..

Maybe.. 

I can let myself love him.

I brushed my fingers on his face moving away strand of hair. 

- Please, make me believe in love again, - I whispered still caressing his face. 

---time skip---

I left Sasuke sleeping in my apartment. 

I needed air. 

I needed space.

To think.

I was sitting in park on a bench under sakura tree. The smell of the flowers were so comforting.

I couldn't deny my feelings for Sasuke no more. My heart was screaming to go to him, to let myself be loved once again. However my brain was not so optimistic. It was repeating like mantra - he will hurt you, he will never love you, he will break you.

Those feeling were tearing me apart.. 

- Angel? - the voice startled me. 

I looked up and saw my father standing before me. 

- Father? What are you doing here? 

- I am on my daily morning walks, - he answered sitting next to me. I gave him a half hearted smile. 

My father looked at me and gave a small smile. 

- What is bothering you angel? 

His question made me take a sharp breath. I didn't want him to know I was hurting. I wanted to be strong for him. 

I sighed shaking my head moving my gaze to my hand. 

- I, uh.. - I couldn't speak. 

He put his hand on mine making me look at him. He gave me a reassuring smile making me smile back at him. 

- I'm in love father, - the words just came out of me. - And it scares the hell out of me. 

He continued smiling at me rubbing my hands with his waiting for me to go on. 

- I don't know what to do. We never wanted things to go this far, but I just, - I sighed, - I feel so safe with him, he makes everything seem so easy, so so simple.. But I can't help but fear.. 

- What frightens you love? 

- I'm not sure.. rejection, betrayal, pain..

I sighed leaning back on the bench closing my eyes. 

- Angel, - my father started after few seconds, - I fell in love with your mother at fist sight. But I didn't make a move for months. You know why? 

- Hm? - I turned my head to look at him.

- Because of exact things you just listed, - he said with sadness in his eyes. 

- I feared rejection, I couldn't bear the thought of her rejecting me, the pain it would cause. I feared that I was not good enough for her, that one day even if she won't reject me now, she will find someone better than me one day. 

- And one day, your mother and I were sitting in the library studying and she didn't speak to me the entire time. Her eyes were so sad that day. I asked her what was wrong and she just looked dead in my eyes, - he continued chuckling, - and said "You're an idiot, aren't you?".

- It took me by surprise and I didn't know what she meant by that. I just stared at her and she groaned in frustration and stormed off the library. I ran after her and when I catch up to her, she looked at me with tears on her beautiful eyes. The sight broke my heart.. We stared at each other and she said moving her gaze away from me "I thought we had something but I guess I was wrong. Sorry for getting false hopes". She was the most beautiful, smart, funny woman I've ever known and there she was crying because of me. Because of my stupid fears. 

I could feel my eyes getting watery. 

- I embraced her and confessed my love for her. I told her that I feared she didn't feel the same and she just called me an idiot over and over again, - he said with a little chuckle. - My stupid fears made her feel even worse than I was feeling. And those fears made me loose those months with her, - he said in a low voice. 

- I would give everything to have those extra months with her, - he looked up to the sky closing his eyes taking a deep breath. 

- What am I trying to say love is that if you live your life with fears holding you back, you'll miss out on so many wonderful things. You're so beautiful, so smart, so loving my dear and this life has so much to offer you, don't let this things get in the way. - he said pulling me into his embrace. 

- Even if he rejects you it will make moving on so much easier. You won't be living with "what if"s, - he kissed the top of my head. - And he would be the stupidest man alive to reject your love my dear. 

- Thank you father, - I said still hugging him. 

Listening to my father talk about him and mother made me realize that I didn't want to loose the time I could spend with Sasuke.

Loving him, kissing him.

Just being with him. 

Author's note:

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