I wake up with nothing but pain everyday. My body hurts from trying to pull off tricks i can't do, my head hurts from worrying about everything, and just everything I've been through. Its too much for me to handle. Why do i have to be so worthless?
I roll over to look at my phone and I see a message from Langa,
Langa<3: Reki? Are you okay? I'm really worried about you."
Langa is actually worried about me. wow
Langa...
It makes me wonder if he actually cares or if hes just gonna get bored of me.
Finally, after some time, Reki was able to actually talk to Langa for the first time in 3 days. Even if it was just over text.
"I'm not ok."
He felt bad for saying this, he felt selfish and attention seeking. But he really needed to talk to someone and Langa was the only person he could talk to about it somewhat comfortably.
Langa on the other hand was happy to see Reki's message, but he definitely wasn't well. And Langa needed to know now what was wrong. He needed to be there for Reki.
"You can talk to me Reki, you're not selfish for this even if you feel like it."
It's as if Langa could read Reki's mind. Langa understood him so well. Isn't he amazing?
"Langa, I just hurt so much right now. And i owe you an apology. I'm sorry i wouldn't let you in my room the last couple days, i wanted to talk to you but i didn't want to burden you with my pain. I feel really bad and if I made you upset then i will never forgive myself."
Hearing this, made Langa Sad, he doesn't want Reki to go through so much, he doesn't want him to feel bad, he just wants him to be happy.
But Reki feels as if being happy isn't real anymore.
"Reki if i come over will you let me in this time?"
"Yeah"
"I'll be there as quick as possible."
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7 minutes later, Reki heard a knock on his door. He wanted to feel excited to see Langa, but the feeling wasn't there, it was just empty. Like nothing was left in his shallow heart besides emptiness and hurt.
he opened the door and let the snowboarding friend into his room
Langa just stood there for a second, noticing Reki. He just needed to see Reki, He needed Reki, and it seemed Reki needed him just as bad or even more.
Reki just collapsed onto Langa, he buried his face into Langa's chest and cried.
Langa fell to the floor with his back against the door, taking Reki with him and holding him tightly in his arms as he sobbed his heart out.
Langa wasn't good at comfort, but he still was doing his best to try and make Reki feel better. Gently sliding his fingers through Reki's greasy hair.
Reki was a total mess right now. Hygiene is really hard, and Langa understands that and he doesnt mind it that much right now, he just needs to keep holding Reki. He just needs to help Reki feel better no matter what.
Reki's sobbing was now more of a soft cry. He was still sad and still crying, but you could tell he was calming down slowly.
Langa gently touched the others hand and gently wipered into his ear
"Shhh, It's gonna be ok, I'm here for you."
Reki gripped Langa's hand tightly in response.
His tears slowed down to almost stopping, but he wasn't ok still, he was getting better at least
"Langa... I'm pathetic, why do you even care about me?"
This made Langa's heart ache. Reki was the most amazing boy ever, he's gorgeous, talented, funny, kind, fun, he could go on all day with how great Reki is. He love's Reki. It hurts so much to see him like this. But it's so hard to say, Langa Just wanted to tell Reki how great he is, but the words dont work.
"Reki... You're so amazing, I-it hurts to see you like this... I just want you to be happy."
"Langa..."
Langa wiped Reki's tears away with his thumb, his hand still holding om Reki's soft, but wet from all the tears, face.
"You're not pathetic, You're super strong and cool, and I really just adore you" he said as he rubbed his thumb on Reki's cheek, and his other hand still tightly holding Reki's.
Reki was speechless at this point. He was feeling emotions that weren't painful, but happy.
He smiled his first genuine smile in months, he was... he was kind of almost happy.
His heart was healing slowly thanks to Langa.
And Langa's was healing because of Reki.
That smile is so precious.
Seeing Reki's smile was so refreshing to the gay snow boy, that smile was enough to make him happy for the rest of his life.
While Langa was lost in thought thinking about how perfect Reki was, Reki breaks it by throwing his hands over Langa's shoulders and grabbing onto him tightly.
"You're Perfect Langa."
