𝘾𝙤𝙡𝙞𝙣'𝙨 𝙋𝙊𝙑 (𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙬𝙚𝙡𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚) 𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣
𝙖𝙡𝙨𝙤 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙖𝙮 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙚𝙙𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜 :<
I don't want to marry Paige im fucking angry. I refuse to marry Paige.Now that I'm alone I run outside to the bench I met Tony on and cry my eyes out. I put in my headphones and turn them up on full volume. I start playing, no blaring 'Nobody' by mitski.
My ears hurt but I know I deserve it. Why was I so stupid? I can't help but think of Katniss and peeta, why? Why didnt we get out happy ending just like them?
Why Cupid? Aphrodite is none to be the goddess of love and beauty, it seems shes fucking around with me and Tony.
My mitski playlist turns to 'a pearl' and I can't help but relate. I fell in love with a war that I think I just lost. I put that song on a 1 hour loop. I don't care who sees me any more. I full on ugly cry. Nobody appears to care anyway.
I just want it to stop hurting im so exhausted, not physically but mentally. I put in so much effort, he probably hates me.
I remember in 3 hours I have to get married to that brat. I wish I loved her, this entire situation would be so much easier. Why don't I love Paige? She's a brat I hate her!
My life is gonna be fucking hell, divorce is almost one hundred percent taboo in the Royal Family it's basically completely off the table.
I can't do anything except just sit there and cry in my own self pity, fear, self hate, and self disgust. I just can't imagine the rest of my life from now on.
This is not fair. I hate this, I hate myself why did I even try? I'm so pathetic.
I hear a familiar voice walk up to me. "Hey! Are you okay?" Spinie and Steve say almost in unison. "Are you coming to the wedding tonight?" I ask with self disgust still lingering in my hoarse and small voice."Yeah... We are. We're sorry this is happening." Steve says with a saddened loon on his face. We talk for a bit and I go home to get ready.
𝙂𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮....
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ℂ𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝕠𝕗 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖~ (a digital time story with a hint of lampnold)
FanfictionColin is a prince who lives with his two dads Larry and Shrignold. Larry needs Colin to choose someone to be king or queen of their kingdom. The person who Larry finds at the ball for Colin is incredibly rude and horrid. So Colin runs into the garde...