ℂ𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝕠𝕗 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖~ (a digital time story with a hint of lampnold)

ready...

𝘾𝙤𝙡𝙞𝙣'𝙨 𝙥𝙤𝙫 𝙖𝙡𝙨𝙤 𝙃𝙄𝙂𝙃𝙇𝙔 𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙣 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙬𝙝𝙞𝙡𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙞𝙩 𝙨𝙚𝙩𝙨 𝙖 𝙢𝙤𝙤𝙙/𝙖𝙩𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙥𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚

I went to the bathroom in the castle to get ready, Paige was in the girl's I was in the boy's of course. As I put on my suit I imagine me in that suit to marry Tony instead of Paige.

Why. Why. Why. Why is this so unfair. Maybe dad was right about Tony running away on purpose, I mean who would love me?

Royals can't like touch, I'm basically not human because of that. Tony never really seemed to notice, but what if he secretly did? All the bad situations run in my head and I hold back tears.

Why?

The suit is kind of hard to put on, if usually be frustrated by that but I can't really be frustrated when I'm mostly just happy it's buying me time.

I can't imagine my future, it's going to be motherfucking hell. Tony...Why?

I'm not home without him... I'm never home without him.

I fucked up, and now I can never fix my mistake. I hate this. I hate myself. I hate everything.

The suit is now on me unfortunately so I leave the bathroom and go to my parents, they put a crown on my head and tell me that they're so proud or some bullshit I'm not listening to.

I'm too busy listening to my own thoughts. I don't care about anything else. But I have to.....

I guess the ceremony is going to start soon. I mentally and emotionally prepare myself for the hell that is the rest of my life. This isn't fair. I hate this, I'm not ready to get married, I'll only be ready if it's my wedding to Tony to be honest.

𝙍𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮....

𝘼/𝙣: sorry for the short chapter, I'm trying to stretch them out so I have lots of chapters so I feel like I made a long story, also I'm on Christmas break now so expect a lotta new ideas from my last two half functional brain cells. Happy holidays!!!!