trust me

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Frank POV :

It's been one week that the incident happened and everything was perfect. Except the fact that the director hated us and that the majority of the students laughed at us or thought that we are weird and that Gerard is a psychopath. Expect all of that it was perfect. We were happy and that's all that mattered.

We were together since one month ! Time was flowing so fast !

Gee and I were on his sofa when he told me : « move at my house » I almost choked. « Wha-, What ? » « Yes you spent most of your time here so come live with me » I didn't know what to think about that so I just replied : « I need to think about this » « oh okay » He looked disappointed. « it's not against you gee, it's just that it's a big decision and we're dating for only one month... » « I know but I thought you would have already thought about it » I did but I wasn't sure. « I'll take a decision soon, I promise » « fine »

It was 3 am and I couldn't sleep. Gee was snoring next to me but it wasn't the thing that kept me awake. I was thinking about moving at Gerard's house... I was doing the pros and cons and if I followed my heart I would move but if I followed my brain then I wouldn't. It was so hard.

I waked up because Gerard tried to get out of the bed. I realized that I've put my arms around him during the night. « Oh sorry » I said. « It's all good. Ima make coffee do you want some ? » « what day it is » I just asked, out of context. « how many hours did you slept tonight ? » He looked serious so I answered « hum I don't know, something like 2 hours » « why ?! » « I couldn't sleep, I want coffee please. No, I need coffee » « yeah, let me 5 minutes »

« why did you just slept 2 hours ? » Gee asked me while I tried to sit on the sofa. « Hum, I was thinking about what you asked me yesterday... » « really but- » I didn't let him finished. « I've made my decision, it's okay » « really ?! » « yeah ! » He looked so happy « FUCK YEAH !!! » « calm down gee, do I have to remind you how many hours I've slept ? » « oops, sorry » « I thought about moving today » « are you sure ?! » « yeah, pretty sure » « okay my love !! » I smiled, I liked that nickname.

Gerard POV :

FUCK YEAHHHHHHH I'VE NEVER BEEN AS MUCH HAPPY AS I WAS !!! He was going to live with me. Like all the time. It was a dream come true.

« At what time do you want to go to package your stuff ? » I asked. « I don't know, maybe like at 1 pm, I don't have a lot of things so it might take like 2 or 3 hours » « okay, maybe you should sleep a bit more » I suggested. « yeah you're right »

~ skip time : in Frank's apartment ~

« How can I help you ? » I asked. « Can you package my nightstand ? » « of course » I took a box and I put his bedside lamp in it. I opened his drawer and started to take his stuff when I saw something.

Frank POV :

5 minutes after I told Gee to pack my nightstand I understood that I made a big mistake. « You know what gee, let me pack it » He turned his head to look at me and I knew it was too late. « What's that frank ? » « what's wha- » I couldn't finish my sentence that he show me a blade. « what's that frank ? » fuck fuck fuck, it was too early, I wasn't ready for that. « it's...it's nothing » « why is it in your nightstand ? Frankie tell me the truth please » « for nothing, I don't know » « I'm not that dumb frank, but I want to hear you say what you did with that blade, just to be sure » Tears began to flow on my cheeks. He pulled me for a hug. « frank...please don't cry, I'm here now » « I'm sorry gee... » « you shouldn't be ! why do you apologise, it's not your fault at all » « I'm a coward, I self-harm, I'm a fucking coward » I couldn't stop crying. He took my face in his hands. « Listen to me frank, you're everything but a coward ! Self-harm is not being a coward it's being in pain and that's not the same thing at all. Okay ? A lot of people thinks that pain is a bad weakness but weakness isn't bad. We all have weaknesses and you shouldn't hate them cause they made you who you are. You should love them cause you're the most amazing person in this world. We all have weaknesses. I do have some, I've been suicidal, I know what you're going through mentally and physically. I love you Frankie, so much, like I've never loved someone, please trust in yourself like I trust you »