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Frank POV :

It was almost the new year. I was excited because it means that I will start it with the love of my life !

"We should have a party" I said. "oh yeah ? A party ?" Gerard replied. "you don't want to ?" "hum, yes, I mean why not. But...like...we don't have a lot of friends" He's right. Since we were together we didn't really have a social life. "true, but we can invite Mikey and Ray and-" He didn't let me finish. "Frank, you know it's not possible...Ray can't know about us" "he already knows" "how" "I...I told him" "Frank ! Are you serious ?!" "I'm sorry but we get closer and closer everyday and I thought he deserved to know" "no, nobody should know" He looked really mad. He has been acting so weirdly since Christmas.

"I'm sorry" "yeah, you better be" Wah, that was mean. I mean I deserve it but he never acted like this before. "are you okay gerard ?" "yes I am" He huffed. "so no party ?" "ugh do what you want" "hey, why are you talking like this to me ? Like a teenager in rebellion ! Did I do something wrong" "please stop" "to stop what ?" "shut up Frank !" "well, I'm going for a walk" "nice"

I took my coat and went outside. Nice ? NICE ?! Why is he talking like this to me ?! I did nothing wrong. Days ago I was giving him a promise ring and now he was acting like I was the worst person ever.

I walked for an hour and came home, the cold whipping my cheeks. Gerard was on the couch looking at the ceiling. "you're okay gee ?" "STOP ASKING ME THIS FUCKING QUESTION !" "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU" "FUCK YOU FRANK" "stop talking to me like I am a piece of shit right now !" "leave me alone !" "no, I'm definitely not leaving you alone and you're going to explain to me what's happening !" "JUST GO AWAY" "NO" I don't have an idea of what's happening. Why did he start to yell at me like this ?

He stood up brutally and looked at me. "you know what Frank ?" "what ?" He was scaring me. He showed me his ring. "don't do that" I begged him. He smiled at me viciously. "please gerard" He removed it and threw it at the opposite end of the room. "NO" I yelled. I ran to search it and picked it up but when I turned around he wasn't there anymore.

What just happened ?! Why did he do this ? I did nothing. Yesterday we were the best couple ever, he said that he loved me a thousand times and now he threw his ring. I don't understand. "gerard ?" I said. "GERARD ?!" I yelled. No answer. I sat on the couch and did what I do best : crying.

After a big mental breakdown I went into our room. I took my phone and composed a number. "Hi Mikey !" "hey, are you okay ?" I was crying so hard that it was difficult for me to talk. "no" "what's happening ?" "gee...gerard, I don't know where he is. He left after yelling at me" "did anything happen ?" "no, I don't understand. He just yelled at me and left" "okay Ima call him and then I call you back okay ?" "yes, okay, thank you Mikey" "no problem"

I waited, sat on the bed. My phone rang and I picked it up at the second. "Mikey ?!" "no, it's Gerard" "fuck, where are you ?!" "I can't tell you" "please" "okay, but don't be mad at me please" "okay" I was scared as fuck. "I'm with my ex, Bert" "what ?! the one who-" "yes, him" "but-" "let me talk frank" "sorry" I didn't know why I was apologizing, he was the offending.

"so, I've been with him for 3 years. He was violent, you know this. He broke up with me the first day we went outside together. But he came back. 2 days ago I received a message from him. He told me that I deserve the worst, that I'm an asshole, that everybody should hate me, especially you. I don't know how he found out that we were together but he did. So I started to rethink my life. Firstly, I thought that if he knew who you were he could hurt you, and it would be the worst thing ever. So for me the best solution was to get you away from me and to go back with him.. Then, I believed him. I'm a fucking asshole and what I did today testifies to it. So I thought that I didn't deserve you, you're too perfect for me" I sobbed loudly. "are you crying Frank ?" "of course I am" "don't please, what I want it's the best for you. That's why I think we should break up." ''WHAT ? I FEEL LIKE YOU ALWAYS WANT TO BREAK UP WITH ME ! YOU DON'T SEEM TO LOVE ME FUCKER !" "I DON'T SEEM TO LOVE YOU ?! DON'T YOU DARE ! I'M WITH MY VIOLENT EX FOR YOU, BECAUSE I WANT YOU IN SECURITY" "OH YEAH OF COURSE !" It was sarcasm. "YOU KNOW WHAT FRANK ?! YOU'RE RIGHT ! I NEVER LOVED YOU, I ALWAYS HATED YOU CAUSE YOU'RE A BASTARD ! GO TO HELL"

I jumped. I couldn't breathe anymore. I COULDN'T BREATHE ANYMORE !

"Frank, are you okay ?!" I turned to see who was talking to me. "shh Frank, it was just a nightmare" What ?! HUH ?! "you had a bad dream frank, look at me. He took my cheeks. "breathe in and out with me, okay ?" I did. "yeah, good job. You're okay ? Do you want to talk about it ?" "what time is it ? what day is it ?" "it's December 27 and it's 3 a.m" "huh ?" I was so lost. "we...we didn't break up ?" "what ?! no, of course no !" "and your ex, Bert, he didn't text you ?" "that fucking asshole ?! oh no he didn't !" "gerard ?" "yeah ?" "do you love me ? " what a question ! Of course I love you ! You're the love of my life frankie" "are we going to have a party on December 31 ?" "yeah, we already talked about it, Ray is gonna be here, Mikey too" "so everything's okay" "yeah babe"

I started to cry. "frank, what's happening ?" "I had the worst nightmare of my life" "it's okay, it's finished now, I'm here" "I love you" "I love you too" "I don't want to sleep anymore" "do you want some coffee" "yes please" "okay, I be right back !" "no wait !" "what ?" "I come with you, I don't want to stay alone" "of course my love" He took my hand and we went downstairs.

"Can I see your hand ?" I asked him. He showed it to me. "why ?" "no nothing, just wanted to make sure of something" His ring was still here.

We took our mugs and sat on the couch. "Do you want to watch a show ?" He asked me. "yeah" "which one ?" "you know which one" He clicked on the first one...Gilmore Girls. We were like two teenage girls. He took my hand and played with my ring. We fell asleep, there pressed against each other.

When I woke up Gerard wasn't by my side anymore. "GERARD ?!" "I'm here, I'm here !" He arrived. I put my head in my hands. It took me time to realize what happened yesterday night.

Gerard POV :

Frank's nightmares always breaks my heart. He looked so nervous. I squatted in front of him and put my hands on his knees. "I'm here Frank, and I will never leave" I took his ring between my fingers. He looked at me and I finished : "never, I promise"

Hello guys, I'm fucking sorry !! I like to play with your feelings </3

I hope you liked it !

One more time TYSM @sc4tirum for your help ! I luv ya

Whith love,

Chloé