Jaiden (Drew Chadwick) Fan Fic

Chapter Four

Drew's POV 

Jaiden and I held hands all the way to the resteraunt which was actually a small cafe. We propped our surfboards against the wall and took a small table outside. 

"Hey guys. What would you like to order?" a perky waitress in short shorts came over to our table. 

"I would like a cappuccino." I said.

"I'll take the same." Jaiden said and the waitress walked away.

"What else do you want to do today?" Jaiden asked.

"Why don't we just go back to the room and hang out? I just want to hang out with you." I could hear the whine in my voice but I didn't try to hide it. 

"We could go see a movie?" 

"Let's just go back to your room and hang out. I just want to be with you. I don't really want to hang out with you in a public place. I want us to be alone." 

"Okay. We can do that. Let's go." she grabbed my hand and we left the cafe. 

Jaiden's POV

All of a sudden, we were at the cafe and the next minute, we were on my couch making out. He put his hands on my hips and I didn't know what else happened. I felt his skin on mine, and his touch left shivers on my body. This feeling of overwhelming bliss came over me, and that was it. He was mine, and I was his. And now, even more so. He is my everything, and I knew that I was his. 

Drew POV

I lay next to her in her bed, listening to her steady breaths, and I looked at her peaceful face as she slept. I loved her. She was everything to me. I couldn't let her go. She meant too much. I don't know what I would do without her. She woke up, and I smiled at her, putting my arm against her bare stomach. 

"Hi," she said still a little sleepy, "Drew, I love you." 

"I love you too. You are so beautiful, Jaiden." I whispered, kissing her. 

She gripped my arm, and she kissed me deeper. She is my princess. My everything. My world. Maybe my future wife. 

Jaiden's POV

I kissed him knowing he was the only one that I needed. I couldn't stand to think that I would ever be without him. It couldn't happen. It wouldn't happen. He was my boyfriend, and I loved him too much to let him go. 

"Drew, you are wonderful. And I love you more than anything ever." I whispered as his kisses trailed my jaw. 

His eyes looked into mine, and I knew that he was the only thing that mattered right now. The only thing that kept me anchored to the present, and the only thing that kept me moving from the thing that I hadn't told him. The secret I have kept hidden from him, and now, it was something that I needed to say. 

Drew's POV

"Drew, could you look at me for a second?" her voice was stern and I looked at her. 

"What's wrong?" 

"I need to tell you something important. Something I have kept from you." she whispered. 

I nodded, unable to speak. 

"I was eight when I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I used to cut and I even tried to kill myself a couple of times. But, since I met you, I have stopped and I just wanted to let you know because it is a really big part of my life and it is something that you need to know about." she sighed when she finished, and I sat up putting my palm to my forehead. 

I turned to her and wrapped her in my arms, feeling a lump rise in my throat. I couldn't speak, but we just sat there for a long time, holding each other in the silence. She was still beautiful and this thing didn't change any feelings I had about her but it was a good thing to know. Because I loved her and she was everything that I needed. She was my reality and I knew we were perfect for each other and nothing would change that. 

Jaiden's POV

After I told him about my depression a weird calm settled over us and I hugged myself around the waist, feeling the only comfort from myself. Then, in a split second he turned around and hugged me. I put my arms around him, feeling my breath catch in my throat and i felt tears start to slide down my cheeks. 

"I love you, babe. No matter what. We are going to get through whatever stands in our way. I love you." he whispered, wiping tears from my eyes with his thumb.

Moments like this I am so grateful for Drew. He kissed me, muffling my sobs of either relief or sadness. I couldn't tell myself but I just wanted to escape with him, away from things that scared me and the things that I wanted to treasure most of all. He was everything and what good was I without him? 

Drew's POV

I linked my arm through hers as we walked along the boardwalk. I couldn't help but look at her. She was glowing in the wind and I looked at her with such love. I couldn't help but pull her to me and kiss her. She is absolutely goregous and I wanted to kiss every inch of her. She sits on the beach, the wind blowing her hair back and her eyes glistening as she looks up at the moon. 

"Hot chocolate anybody?" I ask, bringing her a cup and my guitar. 

"Oh, you going to sing something?" she looks at me and I laugh. 

"Yeah. Well, I wrote you a song but i don't know." 

"If you don't want me to hear it, that's okay." 

"No. Okay, here." I strum the guitar and start to sing. 

"Jaiden, Oh Jaiden, you're fading, you're fading,  You take my heart away when I think about the days when, We were like ourselves, always together. 

Jaiden, Oh Jaiden, THe mistakes that I keep making. You've taken what was scared, and made it go away, Cause that's how karma works, always forever. 

So, I'll steal your heart another day, yeah, and we'll keep livin' in this holiday, yeah, We can find ourselves looking for the same things. 

Dreams, yes dreams are really useless, When it comes to spending tomes with you- Miss, You make my dreams come true without reason. I wish you were here, oh, oh, oh, oh. I wish you were here, oh, oh, oh, oh. 

Jaiden, Oh Jaiden, I'm waiting, I'm waiting, The pain goes away when I mutter your name, I pretend that we're always together." I look at Jaiden, who has her head down and tears slip onto the sand. 

I run my thumb against her cheek. No tears. Not here, not now. I will them to go away. I will them to stop. I want them to stop. I look at her eyes, tinged with a deeper sorrow. 

"I found out today that my mom, has cancer. Lung cancer. They think that she won't make it. They are doing surgery on her today. And I'm not there." she began to sob, and putting the guitar aside, I hugged her. 

"She is so strong and I am not there for her. What if she dies and I am not there to be with her? What if I'm not the last thing she sees. The last memory she will have of me is that I didn't come to see her when she really needed me." 

"You have to go back." I whisper to her. 

"I can't go back now. Not after I've come so far." 

"There are still a couple of weeks until actual competition. You need to go see your mom. She is everything to you, and you need to go see her." 

"What about you and the guys?" 

"Why would you even ask a question like that? We are big boys, we will be fine. We are going to be working most of the time anyway. You need to go. Tonight." 

"Thank you so much, Drew. I needed you today." she lets out one more heaving sob before she gets up and I walk with her to the hotel. 

To her room where she has to pack.