Teachers secret // mature //

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Song of this chapter!

Two Of Hearts - Stacey Q

First-person perspective

- Victoria Lawson -

It's now the middle of the night and I'm still sobbing while scrolling through TikTok every video is of a couple - if I hear one more 'Wassup Suki... Wassup Bullet' I think I'm going to go mad. It's so lame of me but genuinely I can't sleep without him especially if we're mid-fight. I sit up and lean against the head of the bed, opening Messenger, "I'm gonna message him" I mumble, very nasally from how much I've been crying.

Within seconds, though Matt was seemingly in a deep slumber, his eyes shot open and he sat up quicker than the speed of light like a vampire sitting up from its coffin.

"No! I don't think so, you guys are on a break for tonight at least, you two need to have space from each other." He grabs the phone from me and sighs a breath of relief, "Besides, if he hasn't messaged you then don't waste your time messaging him".

"I thought you were rooting for us, fake ass hoe" I glare but the tears rolling down my cheeks didn't make me look too angry.

"I am, Just leave it for a second, it'll work out" He shakes his head as he speaks, done with my bullshit. "He loves you and I can tell, which usually isn't the case because I'm so blind when it comes to spotting out couples and when someone likes someone but he's always all over you, why else would he have driven two-three hours to get you from your mum?".

I nod my head and lie back down, and so does he, "Do you think I should go to school tomorrow?" He nods his head at my question, "Should I talk to him?".

"Definitely," He nods once again, then turns over to go to sleep. I grab my phone and continue to scroll through my phone, after a while, I chuck my phone onto the floor and stare at the roof for a moment, why won't he message? Is it that hard?

With that, I fall asleep with tear-stained cheeks.

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I wake up early, 4:00 a.m. to be exact, which is mental. I get up to use the bathroom, stumbling through the dark room out to the slightly lighter hallway. Walking past the mirror, I notice how much of a wreck I look. Worse than that one morning.

As I continue walking and only having my thoughts to myself, I decide to look the best I can today. After using the bathroom, I wash myself in Matt's shower, cleaning my face and rinsing my hair. Even after showering, I'm still tired, Well no shit though, I got four hours of sleep. This whole thing is giving Cassie's 4:00 a.m. Morning routine.

After changing into my pyjamas again, I'm not quite awake enough to get ready for school yet. My eyes begin to droop, I tip-toe down the stairs to the kitchen and make myself a coffee. I don't usually drink coffee so we will see how this goes. Surprisingly good though. After chugging it, I brush my teeth and get into my school uniform. My hair is still wet but I don't want to wake the whole house up with Matt's hair dryer so I start on my makeup, just something a little extra but not too much - in all honesty, it's just my routine with a bit more of a touch.

; Primer, Concealer, a small amount of bronzer, a touch of blush, highlighter, eyebrow gel, mascara and my black waterline because that always makes people look sexy as hell. By now it was 6:00 a.m. and Matt's alarm went off, still, instead of the usual one it was Lipgloss by Lil Mama.

Matt wakes up immediately, turning off the alarm making me chuckle and him to turn around and look at me. "Oh, honey, you look good" He smiles and I grin.