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after i finished cleaning and counting money i went back to my office , once i sat down i heard a knock on the door .

"I just closed the fucking door , come in damn !" i yelled

"Calm yo ass down it's me" Terence spoke . i rolled my eyes "Here's your cut " i said sliding it over to him .

He was silent for a while until he spoke "Damn .. you looking sexy " he said grabbing on his pants , "Bye Terence , you got your cut you ain't getting no pussy !" i spoke .

He laughed and walked out , Rashun came in right after Terence walked out .. i hated people shutting and opening my door .. i felt myself become upset

"Before you get mad , i wanted to talk to you hothead" he said sitting in the chair .

"Fuck do you want ?" i said not looking at him "Why you been so upset lately ? i mean you always be acting mean but lately it's been out of control ." He asked

Deep down i felt like crying , but i didn't have anymore tears .

"You know i hate venting , but since you know my family i'll tell you " i said

"I'm listening" he responded "Well , my sisters found me .. i'm not surprised because we all still live in Detroit .. but i hate thoses bitches ! they ruined my life .." i spoke

"now they are trying to ruin it more .. i don't understand why they are trying to connect with me when they don't even like what i do .. i'm just an embarrassment for the church" i said folding my arms ..

"You don't have to connect with them , it's your choice especially if they hurt you that badly .. but some day you have to say how you feel Doe .. if you don't you'll be even more angry " Rashun said

I sat there quiet , i didn't wanna admit it but he was right .

"Mhmh" i said

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"I'm really going to this lady house" i said to myself as i got dressed , after my talk with Rashun i decided to head over to Matties house .

I didn't want to .. but since i missed so many birthdays and this was her only wish i decided to make it happen ..

I wasn't going to build a bond with my sisters , that line was officially cut .

"You can't hurry him" i sung to myself , i stopped singing after i left church .. i let go of everything .. i didn't even know if i could still sing .

I quickly stopped noticing the song i was singing , i shook my head and grabbed my things to get ready to leave .

I dragged myself to the car not ready to be back in the house where everything happened .

i drove to the house in silence , i was just stuck in my thoughts the whole way there .. i wanted to puke but i held it in .

After finally arriving i sat in the car for a bit .. i just stared at the outside of the house .. memories came flooding my head . But also the traumatizing things that happened came flooding my head .

I got out the car and walked up to the door "They still didn't fix the door bell" i said to myself , i knocked

Mattie opened the door and stood there with her jaw dropped "Oh my god ! y'all my baby's home !" i gave a fake smile .

Karen ran to the door and hugged me tightly , she was still like a baby to me .

"You're here ! i'm so happy thank you jesus" Mattie said , she grabbed my hand and pulled me inside .

Jacky watched me walk in and rolled her eyes "Jacqueline don't you start !" Denise said hitting her arm .

"Hey sis" Denise hugged me , i couldn't hug anyone back .. my body just wouldn't let me do it ,