december 15th 2021
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phil knows sage is struggling. she hasn't left their bed and just lies there watching friends or staring at the wall. ronnie goes to his grandparents during the day because sage isn't in the right frame of mind to look after him when phils at training.
today phil has decided to take ronnie to the shops to get stuff for sage to hopefully cheer her up and if that doesn't work then he'll get talia to help.
"right ron, we've got to get sage her favourite things, okay?" phil said pushing the trolley whilst ronnie sat in it.
"okay daddy." ronnie said as phil smiled at him..
ronnie chose some white wispy flowers and white roses both which happened to be sage's favourite type of flowers. then they got her a load of her favourite snacks and phil decided to get her a fluffy blanket, knowing she'll love it.
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back at home, sage was lay in bed, her blonde hair a mess and tissues all around her. she's never been so heartbroken and useless in her life. she doesn't know what day it is or what time it is. her phone is across the room, dead. she doesn't want to go on her phone ever again because she will just feel the pain of seeing other people announcing they are pregnant and thinking she could never do that.
she saw the door open and just thought it was phil so she carried on staring at the tv and it was phil but also ronnie.
"mummy....i got you favourite flowers." ronnie said and phil looked at him smiling at what he just called sage and sage started to tear up.
"thank you bud." sage said quietly and ronnie shoved the flowers in her face.
"smell them! they delicious!" ronnie giggled and sage inhaled the sent of the flowers and smiled.
"they smell gorgeous, thank you ron." sage took the flowers off of ronnie who ran off, she assumes to his play room.
"here you go my love." phil handed sage the bag and she looked through it.
she gave him a soft smile whilst putting the bag on floor next to her. phil took his shoes off and climbed into bed with her, all phil knew was he had to be there for her.
"do you think we'll ever have a baby." sage whispered as phil grabbed a hair brush to de-knot her hair for her.
sage moved between his legs to make it easier for him to do it as if she was lay down, it would be impossible for him to do it.
"i'm sure the new year has it all planned out for us." phil said as sage sighed.
"this year has been pretty shit, the only good thing was getting with you." sage whispered and phil kissed her forehead.
"MUMMY, YOUR FLOWERS ARE GOING TO DIE!" ronnie screamed as he ran into the bedroom.
"what?" sage was more than confused by the two year old.
"THEY NEED WATER TO SURVIVE, YOUR GOING TO KILL THEM!" ronnie shouted again and sage laughed.
"ron, they can survive a few minutes wit-" sage started to speak but she saw ronnie pour a glass of water on them.
"i don't think he understands does he?" sage laughed to herself and phil shook his head whilst laughing.
"see, now they are alive." ronnie said and sage started laughing uncontrollably and phil smiled at her.
phil was happy to see something he loves, sage's smile.
