Part of my journal

Introduction

I apologize for the mistakes that I might have made, I am still learning.

I was looking for comprehension, but it was hard to find since I myself did not fully know what I wanted to express.

Many people around me have told me that leaving everything behind me and going to a completely new place was very courageous of me, that I should be proud of myself, that I have achieved a lot. That is hard for me sometimes, I am quite hard on myself, but I know that I should listen to them. I am aware of not being the only one having moved from one place to another, that is why I do not feel so special. Likewise I am aware of all the people fleeing their country for a war or for very poor living conditions, who often do not even know how they will be welcomed, who are sometimes subject of discrimination. I cannot even imagine how brave and strong they must be. That is why I do not even consider myself especially brave. Still, moving is not extremely common either, it may be quite challenging, it is related to strong emotions, both positive and negative. I often felt the need to share my concerns and my doubts with somebody, but it may be quite hard to be fully understood by somebody who has not experienced the same. Whenever I encounter people on the internet who share their experiences about this topic I am very glad to acknowledge that I am not the only one, that other people around the world have felt similar feelings in similar situations. That is why I'm publicizing this journal. It may help the people around me to understand me better, as well as it may bring some relief to those who are going through a partially similar situation. 

But, primarily, this is a simple journal for me to give voice to my feelings.