The Missing Piece

13. Unseen Disasters

"May I come in?"

"Come"

"Good morning sir"

"Did you get the work done?"

"Yes, sir"

"What about the shipment"

A smirk plastered on his face and his hand holding a wine filled goblet, half of his face shining from the wood burning in the fireplace and the other hiding in the shadows

"It will arrive within a few weeks"

"Great... Its been very long since I last saw them" his voice laced with venom

Y/n's POV

'I love you... I love you so much that I can't feel anything inside me except the race of my heartbeats... They are going insane by the mere thought of losing you. Why are you taking such a decision?'

I really wanted to ask him why was he doing this

'Do you really care that much about your country or is it just a way for you to escape?'

I wanted to know the reason for his behavior, those eyes which tried their best to hide tbe anger within them... I wanted to be the one who receives his wrath. I want him to curse me, slap me, kill me even and I won't say a word. I deserve it.

"Here eat this" I was startled by the sudden hand in front of my face holding a... chicken wing? "Wh- What?" my brows furrowed in confusion.

"Your stomach was growling and making weird noises...it-it keeps disturbing me" His eyes avoided looking at my face and hands scratched his nape.

"Oh... Sorry" I said being reminded of the cramping pain in my stomach when it made a loud growl again. "I-I mean Thanks" I said taking the wings from his hand

Can you see my eyes shining with unshed tears? Can you see the longing and pain they hold? Beacause all I can see in yours is pain... Misery... Hurt and some occasions I have came to see the anger within them too. I saw anger for me in them when I sat in front of him, those flames ready to engulf me but then at the same time how do you act so calm. As if there is nothing wrong between us, as if you aren't hurting yourself inside.

"I-I-"

"why are you stuttering y/n?"

"I... Ummm... I don't know"

"what were you trying to say"

"I wanted to thank you"

"For what?"

For everything

Namjoon's POV

"For the chicken wings" she replied her voice was a whisper, she was holding in alot but wasn't able to word out.

"You already did" I said

"Oh... Sorry... I mean..."

"It's ok just shut up" I blurted out

My eyes widened when I realized what I had just said. She didn't say a word after that. She looked at her lap and silently ate the wings, gulping each one down with difficulty as if she would cry any second. I could see those emotions breaking through today.

I know the difficulty of being in love, these overwhelming feelings of happiness for the person you are sacrificing for but at the same time this void emotion of loneliness and knowing that you won't have him for yourself ever. I have been through it but she doesn't know.

"Hey! Where are you going?" someone called from behind, turning around I saw a classmate coming my way.

"I am looking for y/n. She asked me to walk her home." I answered him