Oh My Player!

Chapter 5 - Curiosity

The meeting ended and we went back to the dorm. The thoughts and doubts I had about Tawin hadn't left my mind the whole way. Not even the fact that I had to dance and do some sort of talent show at the contest, made my head turn away from the doubts.

We arrived at the dorm, I needed to ask him, I had to know what Mali was referring to when he didn't let her speak but how? How would I ask something like that? No, I couldn't, I had to start the conversation in another manner, not just like that.

-Tawin?

-Hm? – he looked at me with a surprised face.

-Hm... are you tired already? - my voice was trembling, like he was going to hit me just for asking.

-Not really, no. Why do you ask?

-I thought we could get something to drink and talk about the contest. I have no idea what to do for the talent show. – I hope this works, I thought to myself.

-Okay. So where are we going?

-There is a coffee shop nearby, we can speak there.

He agreed, we went there and sat down at a table against the wall not far from the exit door. I was thinking on how to start the conversation, why was I so nervous about this? We are friends, I am sure he won't be mad if I just make a little question, right? It's just I'm really curious of what could possibly make him not to sleep.

Without expecting he started the conversation after ordering two cups of coffee.

-So, you don't know what to do for the talent show, right?

-Yeah, I guess so. – I answered, but it was not that what I wanted.

-Me neither. Well, maybe you can show some tricks with the football. But me... I still don't know, maybe I'll play the piano and write a song since I'm good at writing.

Wait! Did he just say that he played the piano? I wonder why he learned it. Anyway, that is not what's important, the important is to ask what I came here to ask.

-That's a great idea actually.

-You think so? – he asked looking curious at me.

-Of course! Hm... I wanted to ask you a question but I'm afraid you be mad.

-Ask what you want. If you don't disrespect me or anything like that, it's fine. – he said with a smile on his face.

-I wouldn't do that. Well, why didn't you let Mali finish what she was saying this morning? – my heart was pounding so fast because I was afraid, he would just scream and never talk to me again. And we are a group of friends and Nin really likes Mali and Tawin, so I couldn't mess this up.

-Oh that... You really want to know? – he seemed sad and worried at the same time.

-Yes, if you don't mind.

-Okay. Well, when I was in middle school I fell in love for the first time, I know it's ridiculous but it's true, he was a year older than me. I met him at the music club, I played the piano, and he sang. When I finally got the courage to say that I loved him, he laugh in my face and the whole school teased me since then. That was when I stopped the piano and concentrated on school. And it was because of him that I didn't get to sleep for that whole week.

I was so surprised that I didn't say anything, I just, sat there looking at him as if he was some kind of alien. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't my intention, I just was really surprised.

-You, okay? Too much information at a time? – he asked.

-No, it's not that. – it was that and the fact that he just told me he is gay without even hesitating. – I'm just surprised how direct and comfortable you were telling me all that.

-Comfortable? Believe me it was the hardest thing I had to do. But you're my friend so it's better for you to know. - he said, calmer now.

-I'm sorry but I must ask. You said, you fell in love with HIM, right?

-Oh, I didn't even realized that. But... yes. – he was worried again.

-Okay, just to check that I didn't get it wrong. – I said while trying not to look weird with him.

He smiled at me, and we sat there looking to each other until we finish our coffees. Then we went back to the dorm, and I said I was picking him up again the next day to go to the Uni like if he hadn't told me anything.

I entered my room, and I couldn't believe what I had just heard. What was I going to do? I had to treat him as always or our friendship would be ruined. What am I thinking? Just because he is gay doesn't mean he is going after you, stop being worried about that.