I never told you this ~Neymessi

Final

~Neymar pov
I am already in Brazil. I just had to leave from Qatar.  I have been playing poker and losing money a lot. But the exitement I gain from gambling is something extrordinary. This is better than being high. I have money like trash so I do not need to worry. But at times when I am really depressed it helps. This is one of the only things I can still feel now. The exiting sensation of risk.

"Neymar today is the world cup final"
My opponent announces. I just hum at him.
"Straight line you lost"

Yes the final, I almost forgot about it. I do not have any idea what time or day is now but certainly it feels like sutch a short amount of time had passed.

As I sit on my coutch I take some vodka and junk it down my troath. It burns like the flames of the devil. But oh god does it give an amazing sensation.

In the end Argentina win.
I was jealous but also so goddamn happy.

~few days later

I arrived in Rosario in search of Leo.
I was waiting for him on our meeting spot. I have waited for an hour, but on the otherhand I am still an hour early. The minutes pass by and I look to the sky. One of the clouds looks like eternal happiness to me. A smile crawls it's way to my face.
"Ney!" A man yells as he trows himself at me. I do not need a second to know who he is. I push him away and he looks confused.
"Leo, I am happy for you. You showed us all that it is possible to do miracles and be perfect.  On the otherhand now I realize that I have wasted a lot of my life. I should have tried better. I should have striked to be perfect just like you,"
"Ney, I am not perfect. It might seem like that to many but I myself have had my hardnesses. I am far from perfect everyone is. What even is perfect? It is something we believe exist but still want to be. Only becouse we feel that is impossible. In reality we are all perfect. If humans are made believe that a homeless guy is perfect it is possible for us humans to believe it. We do not know what is perfect such thing does not devine the power and worth of humans.  We are not able to think fully freely. All our laws, what we might think is good or bad, everything comes from outside. Such surfaciecal thing as perfect does not exist. All we know about this world for a fact is that we don't know,"
Leo sure has done his reading.
"Maybe, but what we see as perfect I can strike towards it. I may not be able to become perfect but I can become the best version of Neymar. Relying to the laws of universe, creating the best version of me and striking towards it.
And my first step is to do something I should have done a long time ago," I say as I drop down on one knee and pull out the diamond ring worth millions of euros. Leo stares at me quietly.

"In the next life of ours I will find you again.  I will be brave enought to love you aloud from the start. I'd pick you thunder and rain over anyones sunshine. The parts of my life I spend whith you are my favorites. I want to continue making my life my favorite. So I want to be whith you. In sickness and health. Untill death do us part. And after death wherever we go I will find you, love and cherish you. There are 8 billiong smiles in the world but only yours can light up my soul. Something about you makes me feel more alive. My life was never better than whith you. Whith regrets we both drowned to the words we were not able to say aloud. But we still have time to make our lifes the most beautiful ones. My universe is beautiful only when you are my stars. When death takes my hand I will find you again. In a hundred lifetime, In a hundred worlds, in any version of reality I will find you and I will always choose you. I miss you like the stars miss the sun when you are not whith me. The memories of you were forever in my head and I just wanted to be whith you. I missed you so mutch. I had never seen the colours that I saw whith you by myside.  When I left I could't see them anymore. But when you came back to my life my universe filled whith colours far more beautiful. Everyday my love for you grows. There is only one question.
Will you make me the happiest man alive and marry me?"

After my speech Leo was crying, "YES, yes I will," I put the ring on his finger and we kiss.

"You say you need to become perfect or close to perfect, but to me you already are perfect. Always have and always will be. Meeting you was like listening to a new songfor the first tine knowing that it was all you ever dreamed of and would be your favorite forever. Before I met you I felt that I couldn't love anyone, besides myself. Still I couldn't love myself. I started loving myself only after you showed your admiration to me. I thought that if someone as amazing as you thinks I am awesome then maybe I am not that bad. I often looked over at you wondering how I could begin to describe you. I would say that you have the ability to blind people whith happiness, or me atleast. You gave me something that no-one had before. You made me whole. I was always happiest around you. In the end I will always choose you. You drew memories in my mind I could never erase. You painyed colours in my heart I could never cover. My soul will always need you, my soulmate. I used to go to sleep so I could go back to the times where you and I spent every possible freetime moment together. When I looked up I smiled becouse I knew we were blth under the same sky.
Neymar, you are the sole person who can make my life my favorite. You are the only one to make my life something I would never change. Often I have desired to be someone else. But when you are whith me, when you love me I would never want to be anyone else. I want to spend the rest of my life whith you. In ups and downs, in sickness and health. Untill death do us part and after that. I will always love you,"

The end

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