A writers moment

Mood Swings

I hate it.

I hate this part of my personality.

The fact that everything can be okay one second and the next it's like I'm drowning in an ocean.

How my throat closes up and my stomach starts to swirl as the voice in my head start talking.

How I can suddenly wanna end it all or relapse while on the outside I'm still smiling to everyone only to run and hide a few seconds later.

No longer being able to breath as I start rocking back and forth.

Crying like I have been holding it in for months.

And within a few seconds it can change again from breaking down to just being irritated with life and taking it out on everyone.

And another how I go from irritated to angry.

Angry to happy.

And so I'll repeat the cycle over and over again.

Drowning in my own thoughts at times.
Being an angry and irritated soul.
But also being the happiest person you can meet.

All within twenty four hours.

I wish I wasn't like this.