It is easier to hate

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After a long time I finally could get Natasha on the ground.

„Wow you're really good in fighting."

„Thanks Natasha"

„Your welcome....."

„Y/n"
I say not sure if that was the right thing to do.

She smiles

„Your welcome Y/n"
She stands up and starts walking away.

„I will tell the others that you're good."
She turns around

„Even though we know it was just bad luck"

With that she walks away. Shit! She was so nice.
Fuck you Y/n she isn't nice! She escaped the red room and you got punished for it!

When I think through it, I also did...

With a tonne of guilt feelings I walk in my room again.

I take a few minutes to calm down.

After that I get back I to the training room. When I have to much pressure I start boxing. I go to one of the punching bags. I also plug in some earphones and get some Music. Some guy called Tony gave me a phone. While punishing the bag end letting all my anger out I go through my plan again.
Did really everything gone right?

After going through it like 6 times, never finding some mistake I get pushed out of my bubble by a voice.

„Are you alright?"

I turn around in shock, even with headphones no one ever came to me without I knew it, when suddenly the punching back pushes me onto the floor. That was so embarrassing.

It was Natasha's voice.

„Yeah why wouldn't I be?"
I say while standing up.

„Well you got bloody hands"

I look down, she was right. My knuckles got bloody and wound.

„Oh yea well I just forgot the time"

She frowns

„Didn't you even felt something on your hand?"

To be honest? No. I blend it out automatically, one of the useful things I learned in the red room.

I zone out thinking of the red room again. You always needed to train and do it again until you get it perfect, doesn't matter what happens. I shake my head to get in real life again and say

„Yes I just wanted to stop when you came"

I walk to the bathroom hearing her steps following me. I wash the blood again and she gets some bandages with a ointment.

„I don't need that"

„Yes you do and now stay still"
I already wanted to argue with her but she looks at me with a death starre. Normally I wouldn't care but she is a widow. A way better widow.

„I can show you the tower now"

She says after making me look like a little kid that needs a plaster. Since I don't know where what is I agree. When we walk through the building she shows me every room. There where also 2 different training rooms. In one of them was this guy called Tony. We talked a bit and after a while he said something like :
„I like you kid"

Yeah I shouldn't care but for some reason it made me happy. We continue walking when we see Wanda. How I know her name? Easy!
We where together at hydra.

Before you think something like
Wow she also have powers?
Nah. I was not a cool Experiment object.

I failed a mission so Drejkov made me go there as there pain person. To train the kids with the powers they should make plenty of things one me like making me fall or some more serious things.

Wanda was the one that safed me. She always went in my mind and told me to pretend.

After a while I also knew what to make that she doesn't looks in my mind again. She knows more about me than anyone else so when I see her I „open my mind" sounds cringe I know and she immidiatly smiled.