I run up into my room, hearing Natasha and Clint are following me. I shut the door and lock it.
I let myself slide down the door and press my head into my hands.
„Y/n please let me in!"
„Go away!"
I say with tears in my eyes. I never wanted that someone finds out.
„Please Y/n let us talk. I know exactly how it feels!"
I know that. But I don't want to talk to her. I just want to be alone, like I always was and always will be. I hear how Clint speaks now.
„Y/n I will always be there for you. Open the door please"
I go on my bed and start crying. This is all to much for me.
Knowing I shouldn't do that I get a blade. Cutting me always made me stronger. So I start cutting and repeating in my head, stop this shit be a normal person just for one time. You're such a baby
Suddenly I hear Wanda on the door talking with Nat what she is doing.
In panic I try to close my mind so she couldn't read it but it was to late. I feel how she's in my head and hear her gasp outside the door.
„GO AWAY!"
I scream and I hear Natasha shouting something.
It's completely silent outside and I think that I am finally alone. I start cutting again when I hear how someone opens the door. When I look to the door I see Natasha.
The good thing is that she was alone.
The bad thing she stares at my arm.
I roll down my sleeves as fast as I could but she rushes to me.
„give me the blade!"
She says and pulls the blade out of my hand. She throws it in the bin and sits next to me.
I don't know why but she has tears in her eyes.
„Promise me you won't do this again, okey?"
She looks at me with an intense eye contact and I look down ashamed.
After I promised her to never sh again she gets bandages over it.
„Lay down, I know what to do with your knuckles"
I don't move and she smiles a bit.
„I know you can't trust me but I promise you I will not hurt you"
I slowly lay down and she makes something on my knuckles when she is finish she lays next to me.
„So.... How long have you been there?"
I don't respond
„Please talk to me Y/n!"
*sorry for not posting so much but as special I will release 3 chapters on the 22th of February because that's my birthday*
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It is easier to hate
FanfictionNatasha was always the preferred one. She is better in fighting, in shooting in basically everything. She hates her for this, maybe she is also jealous of her. The whole team preferred her so Y/n always was a single fighter. But hating someone that...
