ENTER CODE ⦂113020 - CORRECT! 💬 welcome! " 100% in your 심장" .ᐟ◜𖥦◝ " 02/08/20 chulreo's letter to 02/08/21's chulreo "
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" this is august 2nd, 2020's ji chulreo talking to august 2nd, 2021's ji chulreo. uh.. first of all, have you been sleeping well? i don't know if you remember when you were me, but i'm not sleeping well. also, did you- oh, wait, you're older than me now. i should call you eonni. yeah, yeah i probably should. uhm, eonni, did you make it? did you make it to 20? or did you give up on that already?
it's been really hard for me lately. i don't know where you are or if you're still here, but i hope you aren't going through a hard time. i don't know what's going on in your head, but please don't forget what's been going on in mine. i hope that no matter where you are now, you still remember where we were.
oh, right, i almost forgot. chulreo eonni, did you debut? if you didn't, don't blame yourself. if you blame yourself, you're blaming me too. if you didn't debut, it's my fault. i'm doing my best for both of us. uhm.. i don't really know what to say to you. heh.. uh, i just really hope you debuted. if you didn't- i don't wanna.. i don't really wanna guess what you're thinking if you didn't debut.
will you still think of who i am if you didn't debut? will you blame me if you didn't make it? i've been you, i am you. i know you'll blame me. maybe if you didn't make it, you'll be mad at me. eonni, actually, you're really selfish, but i hope you don't think of yourself that way. you shouldn't think negatively, but i'll think negatively. you do the good work and i'll do the bad stuff. i'm sure you're working to improve yourself if you didn't debut.
wah.. this is actually depressing.
eonni, be serious. did you debut or did you not? if you didn't debut, i'm going to fight you. you worked so hard for this. if you fail to debut, wait for me to beat you. i'm going to be really disappointed in you if you didn't debut.
i'm working so hard for the both of us right now, i can't even remember the last time i wasn't tired. eonni, i know i said i'd beat you if you didn't debut, but i'm being serious now. we only improve, we don't get worse. what happened to ji chulreo? what will happen to ji chulreo? our future and your past are in the hands of the ji chulreo i am, so i'm going to do this with every bit of effort i have.
i'll make sure you don't look back at me now and think, "i could've done so much better. if i did better, maybe then i would've debuted.", i'll make sure we debut, okay? you're probably even laughing at me right now. sigh, you're so lame.
i don't know if you debuted or not, so i don't know whether to be proud of you or to be disappointed in you. but i know that whatever you do, you're happy. i know you, eonni. i've been you. you won't do things that make you feel sad. i'm talking a lot, aren't i? sorry, i know you're annoyed by me. i want to talk to you because you've already overcome this phase of sadness.
i have no one to talk to nowadays. everyone is hurting and i can't be selfish and talk to them about how i'm hurting too. i wanna be able to talk to heeseung again, but for some reason, whenever i wanna talk to him, nothing comes out of my mouth. i just get speechless when he sits down and looks at me, just waiting for me to say something.
ugh, eonni! this is going nowhere.. okay, okay, i'm going to say goodbye now. i'm going to say goodbye to you now.
to august 2nd, 2021's ji chulreo, this is august 2nd, 2020's ji chulreo speaking. no matter where you are, no matter who you are, just know that i'm glad you've become someone so much better than i am. don't feel uncomfortable in your skin, and don't be ashamed of your identity. just be you. don't change yourself for anyone, and don't let anyone change themselves for you. you're perfect, and so are the people around you.
i love you, and i can't wait to finally become you. bye, eonni! sleep well and poop smoothly! "
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