a new beginning. ✔ (va characters dimitri and rose)

Chapter 8: to lose control

Back at Court

Dimitri's POV.

I stormed out the door. Needing to get out of there before I lose all my control. I walked out to the training centre to blow of this explosion that has been building up inside me. I was this close to fiscally hurting Roza. I would never forgive myself if it had gone that far.

I took of my coat and grabbed my gloves from my locker. I stood before the punching bag and let lose all the rage that was inside me. I kept going. A guardian friend came up to me and asked something but I was so focused on the punching back I didn't even realize he asked if I was okay till well after an hour that he left. Feeling all the anger and rage dissipated. The remaining feelings were of aching muscles. I've been punching full force for over an hour without rest. After I collapsed on a nearby bench replying the events. Trying to look at it logically.

"Roza pregnant. My Roza. Did she cheat? If yes, with who? After all we've been through, how could she do this to me, to us. Dhampir's can't have children together. There isn't any record of this. What if were different somehow? No. I've always believed the simplest explanation makes sense.

Maybe Lissa knows who?

Even though I don't want to talk to Roza right now I need a fresh paire of clothes right now. It's almost dinner time so I hope she's out to grab something to eat and we won't run in to each other.

When I reached the room it was quiet inside. Al the lights were of.

Thankfully no Roza. I took a quick shower and dressed in some fresh clothes. While I sat on the bed to put my shoes on I saw two envelopes on my pillow one marked Liss and one marked Comrade With Roza here hand writing.

Hesitantly I opened my letter.

Dear Comrade.

Sorry if I made you lose control. I never meant to. A long time ago I asked you if you trusted me as I thrust you. Apparently this is not enough.

I do understand your reaction even though it was a lot more than I expected. This will be the last time I ask you to thrust me and believe my word without proof. It's yours and only yours!

I don't know how but if there is proof I am going to find it. When I find it I will return. Please keep an eye on Liss for me.

Do not look for me!

Love you always, Goodbye my Comrade.

Your Roza

I could see Roza has been crying while she wrote this by the teardrop stains. Without realizing I could see new teardrops falling. They were mine. I just lost the only person I ever loved, because I didn't believe her.

This made my heart break. I trusted her completely but this. I just cant. It's impossible.

I took the other letter and headed out towards Lissa. Maybe she will know more?