𝗥𝗘𝗖𝗜𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗖𝗔𝗧𝗘 ✔️ | 𝗧𝗝𝗠

6.

H.O.E
Happiness over anything.

After the eventful evening i had with jamel , i reminisced about it. Or — in other words , what he said to me during him completely destroying me.

I hadn't felt anything like that , in all my years of living. It was like he was speaking to me through his tongue , even though he spoke to me during it. I told my sister — nylee , about it. She was impressed that i even let him touch me. Or that i opened up.

"well wow. How are ya' feeling right now??" She asked as we sat on facetime as i cooked me a meal. Simple shrimp alfredo with breadsticks was definitely the move for her. My eyebrows cocked up as i threw the cleaned and seasoned shrimp into the skillet.

"What you mean how i feel?" I asked , confused.
"You let that man put his tongue on you. Old de wouldve never let you him do that. You like him."  She teased. I shook my head. "I might like him , but im still the same old de , ny." I said , stirring the boiling noodles. "Face it maria. You're changing your ways. You've opened up and let him in. You're letting your guard down and quite frankly— you cant say you dont notice it yourself" she said sternly , moving around a bit. She had called me by my middle name so i knew that she was serious.

I stopped and thought about it. She was right. I hadn't had someone like that so close to me before , in a long time. I opened my mouth to respond — only to be shot down by her speaking again. "Listen— i gotta' go. But you know what tha' fuck you want. Let yourself have it. You deserve it." She said quickly before saying 'i love you , bye' and hung up the phone.

I was still deep in my thoughts about him and our situation. I shrugged it off , letting it become a discussion for later and continued to cook my dinner.

12:55 am.

My phone rang loudly. I groaned and tossed around , grabbing my phone and declining the phone call as the bright green and red button played on my phone in my dark room , only for it to ring again. I sat up and groaned again , answering it with a quick 'hello'.

"mama i misss youu." A deep voice from the end of the line slurred out , as loud background music played. It sounded like a slow song. It was indeed jamel , and he was drunk.

I looked at the time on my phone as i pulled it asay feom my face. "Jamel its 12:55 in the night , what are  you doing drunk?" I mumbled , and stretched sitting up.

"Lee n themm asked me if i wanted to come ta' the club so i said fuck yea!!" He slurred again. I giggled at him a bit.

"Well i miss you too , did you drive?" I asked turning on my light and placing my phone on speaker mode and put on clothes.

"No , and everyone else is drunk" he slurred. I nodded to myself and asked him which club he was at , and telling him to tell them to get ready. He blew kisses all in the phone and i giggled.