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Happily Ever After #1|20|

~Anastasia~

I wake up in Austin's arms; i guess he brought me to his room after last night.

I blanked out. Im broken. Still in shock from what happened the night before. How could someone go from being your night in shining armour to someone you want to run away from. Truth is, i want to run away from Austin, i want to run into Carlo's Arms instead. He's a light in the darkness. Although he broke me, took all of my dignity, embarrassed me. I still find myself craving more, more of him. His touch, his smile, his laugh, his beautiful icy blue eyes. I want him back. But I can't have him. It feels like I'm stuck underwater, drowning. It feels like i cant breath. It feels like Austin is holding me back. Suffocating me of my happiness and my desire to love.

I can't run away, not now, not in a year, not ever. I'm stuck behind these closed doors, drowning in the deep ocean of darkness. Pure darkness. This is it. The day I get married, the day that I am no longer a free women. I'm enclosed by this powerful male. Trapped in his horrifying trap. I like men who make me beg for more, men who know my body and make me feel good. Yes Austin is good, at everything but Carlo is even better. Carlo knows every inch of my body. He knows when and where to touch me. He makes me feel like I'm on cloud nine. He's my predator and im his prey. I was only with Carlo for a short amount of time, but Carlo knows me in ways that Austin doesn't.

Austin gets up from the bed not noticing that i am awake. He thinks that I'm Sleeping in his dungeon. He walks over to the bedroom door and leaves. His disappearance leaves me in my thoughts. Surrounded by thoughts of regret and anger.
"How's my beautiful soon to be wife?" Austin asks as he walks back into the room and walks over to the bed with a coffee in his hand. Now I have to sit here and act like everything is alright between us when its not. And he brings me a coffee not even a damn Espresso?

"I'm-im alright" i say in a tired voice while taking the coffee from him

"Listen, I'm sorry about yesterday" Austin says while taking a seat next beside me on the bed

"It's alright" i say. No it's not alright, what he did was wrong, so wrong on so many levels. He doesn't have the right to do that to me. But I can't speak up for myself because I'm to afraid, scared that he will do what he did last night again. I used to be the type of girl who speaks her mind, the type of girl who fights for what's right, the girl who sticks up for herself in situations like this. But I let myself go, beneath all of the happiness that this relationship has brought me, it has also brought me tears and the feeling of being hurt and betrayed

"let's get you washed up for our big day hmm" Austin says while helping me get up off of the bed.
"Go clean yourself up. I'll lay out your wedding dress on the bed for you" Austin says
Wedding dress? I didn't even buy one yet. Whatever Austin got for me better be nice looking. Knowing him, He's probably gonna make me wear some gym attire clothes

While walking over to the shower I take note of all of the papers that were on his dresser. Probably papers filled with words claiming that I am his and only his. Papers that he would send out to all of my ex's, explaining that if one of them ever came close to me that their heads would be sliced off of their bodies. Austin isn't the type of guy to kill others like Carlo was, Austin was just a trainer at a gym. Or at least that's what I think

I shut the door behind me and turn on the shower. I step in the tub letting the warm water run down my body, piercing my body with pleasurable pain. Slowly i sit down in the tub, closing my eyes and listening to the water run. Letting my body overtake me in darkness

Is this really it now? Is this my destiny? To be with Austin till death due us apart? What if I don't want this? What if I want to escape and be with Carlo instead? Can I escape? Can I leave this relationship? I mean after all, i am just a broke Pole Dancer living in Downtown Miami
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~Carlo~
They say that everything in life happens for a reason right? well does it though? or is that all a lie? I cheated, I cheated on a beautiful, kind, loving woman, my woman. My goddess. I ruined what me and her had because of my horrible mistakes. Not only did I cheat, but I cheated while my beautiful woman was on a ventilator in a coma. I'm a monster, I'm a huge disgrace. But although I've thought about all of the pros and cons that our relationship had. The Pros out-bet the Cons. And I realize that I am still in love with Anastasia. I will forever be in love. But I can't, I can't do that to her because I know that the real problem in the relationship was me. I'm the reason why Anastasia got shot. I brought her to a party, a mafia party to be exact. Not your regular type of party, A party where violence and crimes take place. A party where A heavy smoke of darkness lingers the whole ball room. That was my fault. I'm the one to blame. I knew all of the possibilities that could've happened at that party, but why, why did I decide to take her to that party despite all of the horrible things I knew would probably happen. It's not that I hated her, it's that I thought she would be safe, by my side. I'm supposed to be her knight, her shield, her protector from all badness. But I wasn't. I'm willing to take a chance and win her over again. I've changed, I'm a better man now