Tulis or Write?

H E A R T B R E A K

been months since we last saw each other

if I text you now, would I be a bother?

didn't mean to leave our love to wither

but you're the on who've chosen her

forgot how my life was before you

was I refined or was I crude?

tainted with your shades of blue

am I innocent or am I lewd?

you brought out emotions inside me

love, hate, happiness, sadness

even my worst days turned to glee

where did you get such prowess?

late night calls falling asleep to your breathing

five months passed by from fling to link

poured my heart out, the secrets and dream

was sure we'd be on each other's team

night drives to your house from work 

it was dark but I know you smirked

rested your head upon my shoulder

my insides lurched as you got bolder

gave away my treasured white bunny bear

you wanted something that smells like me

addicted to the body spray you always wear

kept your jacket but we weren't meant to be

told you about my favourite band

breathed in your smoke secondhand

love to you is nothing but a game

rest assured for I will take the blame

at first didn't mind you calling me "sis"

later on felt like it was such a diss

know I said I like my men younger

regret it now because you're immature

failed to see through his excuses

lies all pretty like the words he abuses

he's just not ready for commitment

thank you boy for the lessons learnt

wary of other women in your life

then found out I was the side chick

lost my head in an endless strife

be honest from the start you dick

tired of being treated as second

maybe you did love me I wonder

you have pushed all my buttons

so this time I should know better

dirty fingernails same as your mind

trying to tear apart the ties that bind

jokes on me for being faithfully blind

wrote this poem to tell you I'm fine