Tulis or Write?

L I G H T N I N G

Three in the A.M.
Only source of light was the street lamp

Night skies were clear, stars twinkling
but the room was flooded from crying lightning

Gold chiffon dress from last night's prom crumpled in the corner
I was devastated, my soul's a goner

Are women's tears a lethal weapon?
You didn't even bat an eye when I was crestfallen

We're playing Russian roulette and you ended up being the one pulling the trigger
I said, we don't need revolvers when your words are like daggers

Sorries were said till I didn't even know what I was sorry for
but no amount of sorry could stop you from walking out the door

Be honest, tell it to my face
Did you even love me in the first place?

I know I'm complicated
Words of love were hard for me to pronounce so that's why I was doubted?

Bad at love, always giving the wrong sign
Sometimes I did things I didn't mean but all I need was for you to be kind

Complimenting other guys was just a way to test you
If you knew me better, all I could ever see was you

How could you know the words I never said?
When we fell apart, you seemed glad

Truth be told, I asked God for a high-school-sweetheart
Prayed that before I graduate, I want somebody that can play the part

God answered my prayer and there were you in my Twitter's DM inbox at the end of May
Pretty words are not enough to describe how exhilarating were my days

Love starts and ends
and ours sure did which I couldn't comprehend

After almost five years, the questions remain the same
Why didn't you give me closure, why was I the one to blame?

If I told you I really love you
and asked you to stay, would you?

We were absolutely not "just friends" 'cause we acted like lovers
One thing for sure, you could always cry on my shoulders

No one's good enough to help me move on
Memories of you are still crystal clear but oh I wish they were gone

I may sound bitter but if you're clever
You should know there are more to this, just remember