Keeping Secrets

Chapter Four Kira's Pages

"I'd give up forever to touch you, cause I know that you'd feel me somehow. You're the closest to heaven I've ever been. And I don't wanna go home right now."

I looked down at her hand on my leg, not certain if I wanted it there or not. I felt my eyes burn with unshed tears that came with the painful memories of my last tour when I lost everything, when my life fell apart. I turned away from her, shame filling me. "I'm so sorry Kira. I can't imagine what it must have been like for you." She said her other hand touching my shoulder while the one on my leg moved to my waist. The sudden contact caused me to gasp in surprise.

I took a deep breath, trying to get a grip on my emotions before turning to face her. She wrapped her arms around me, pulling me into a tight hug. I felt hot tears stream down my face. "You're okay, you're okay now Kira. I've got you." May whispered. I wrapped my arms around her, my head pressing into the crook of her neck, her words washing over me and calming me down more than my own words ever did.

But with the calm came the realization of everything, how close her body was how she looked so right in my clothes, her light breath fanning across my neck as she kissed me there, branding me. I held in a groan as I pulled back to look at her. She was staring at my lips; her heated gaze burned a trail as she met my eyes.

"May I'm not sure we should..." I started shaking my head. "Shut up and kiss me, Kira." She ordered grabbing my shirt in a light grip and pulling me closer to her. "Yes, mam." I complied smiling as I kissed her, meeting her need head-on with my own. I gripped the hem of her shirt and pulled it up, breaking the kiss momentarily. I threw it over my shoulder uncaring as my lips met hers once more.

She moved to deepen the kiss, straddling my lap and pushing deeper into me. I moaned into her, gripping her hips in my hands to draw her even closer. My hands moved up her slim waist, rubbing slow figure eights on her skin as my hands moved higher. I broke the kiss, trailing my lips along her neck as I stood up with her supported safely in my arms.

I walked towards the bedroom, setting her down and walking her backward to the neat bed pushing her down lightly, my body coming down to cover hers as I kissed her. My hands roamed over her heated skin, causing her skin to rise. She moaned into me as my palms ghosted over her perfect breasts. She pulled back, her breathing fast causing her chest to rise and fall quickly as she arched into my hands. Her breaths sped up as I slowly kissed and nipped a trail down her neck, sucking the skin where her neck met her shoulder, leaving a mark there.

I grinned proudly as the skin turned dark purple. I watched as her eyes opened, pupils were wide and blazing with fire. She grinned back at me, sitting up so that I was now sitting in her lap, and kissed me deeply, slowly. The kiss was a drug, taking me under so that I forgot everything but her. I felt her move beneath me slightly, her hands whispering over my thighs and to my waist where she grabbed my shirt in her hands and pulled it off me.

The warm air hit my cold skin, warming it. A gasp caused my eyes to flash open. I looked down at May who was staring at my stomach intently, interest sparking behind her desire. I looked at what had caught her attention and laughed softly. "What?" May asked looking at me and smiling shyly, kissing me softly. "Are you staring at my stomach or tattoos?" "Um... Both." She said blushing as I laughed again.

My laughter was cut short when she flipped me onto my back and began kissing and sucking down my neck, nipping at my collarbone and trailing a path down my stomach. "You have abs." She stated causing me to moan in protest as she stopped. She raked her short nails over my stomach which flexed in tune with her movements and caused me to shiver.

She traced her fingers over the tattoo on my lower abdomen. "What does it mean?" She asked in a whisper. "It's a Nautilus shell. The golden ratio. It's sacred geometry. The natural and unpredictable unfurling together time and time again to create perfect islands of order." "And the code?" "Everything seems to come down to code, even in nature, our biological code that allows us to exist in harmony with everything around us." "Oh. I see. That's actually quite poetic." She said.

She moved her hands up my stomach and to my arms. "And this? What does this mean?" "The eagle is the army dedication originating from Rome and 'Lux' means light in Latin which was my troupe's name. Underneath that is the date I signed up and the date I was discharged." I told her. She simply nodded her head as if she understood what it meant beyond what words could express.

I felt her fingers trace the burnt ash-shaded scroll with words inked on its page. "I will lead you out of the darkness and into the light. I am your sword, protector, and savior." I shot up at her words. "What did you just say?" I questioned not fully believing my ears. And by the shocked look on her face, she couldn't believe it either.

She looked at me confused. "What?" She asked. "You speak Arabian?" "Uh... Yeah?" She replied hesitantly. "How?" I questioned. "I visited the country once and picked it up during the three months I stayed there... for work." She answered. "I was deployed there, my last tour before I lost everything. We stopped in the village market the day before..." I trailed off. "I'm sorry I seemed suspicious of you. It wasn't my intention to be. I just get like that sometimes." I tried to explain. "It's okay Kira." She said rubbing circles on my hip.

"I miss them, they were more than teammates, they were family." She cupped my face gently before kissing me. I welcomed the distraction or tried to, but thoughts of my past threatened to drown me. I jerked my head to the side breaking the kiss. "May I... can't. I can't do this. You're getting... to a man if you do recall. This can never happen. I'm sorry. But this is wrong even if it feels so right. I can't..." I said pushing her off my lap before getting up.