Friends? They're family

Big 5-0

Today, may 16th, was my cousin's 50th surprise party. Technically she is my mom's first cousin but my second cousin? I don't know how that shit works, anyway she's family. I always love family gatherings because it's the one time my cousins and I get away with shit since the adults are drunk of their asses. My cousins and I do the craziest shit, because A) They are way older B) They don't really give a shit C) Half of them are stoners. So the party started off really slow actually, so we kept everything low key.

Anyone know what pesto is? Well it's fucking italian food which is made by the gods, like fucking christ that shit is good. Excuse my french but I don't really give a shit. I hung out outside eating with all my cousins, making inside jokes. Ever heard of the summer program? That is a long story, I shall save for another day. Or maybe towards the end, I don't know. So at this party, my cousins all age from 14- 27. Our family is known for being rebellious, and most of us have gotten into legal trouble at least once. I mean yeah everyone has bad kids in their family, but in my family we have all bad kids. Just some bad kids are smarter than others and know how to be 'good'.

My 27 year old cousin come sit with my and my cousin, we'll call her Pie and the 27 year old one, Phil. So phil was joking around about giving us a shot and I was dead serious along with pie. I thought he wouldn't do it because, who gives their younger cousins alcohol? Apparently phil does, but I'm not complaining. We go into the kitchen and he gives us a cup with dr.pepper and fireball. He was going to give it to us plain, but there were too many sober adults hovering.

Here's the thing about fireball, it taste likes cinnamon and burns like hell. Mix it with Dr.Pepper and you have something quite tastey. I ended up having 4 cups, because that stuff was just amazing. So pie, Phil and my other cousin who is the same age as me go into a room where it is quieter and talk. See phil and my brother are super close so I feel stand off-ish telling him stuff scared he might tell my brother, who will kick my ass.

So pie, has a boyfriend who is about 2 years older than her, not a big deal right? Well it becomes a big deal when he gives her a huge hickey that looks like a 3rd degree burn. She shows phil and you know what he does? He fucking High-fives her, like how much cooler can he get? I ended up telling him I have a bf, and he high-fived me and I'm like, you are chill as fuck. My brother would have skinned me alive if he found out. Only problem about my relationship is that he lives about 8 hours away. I told phil that, and he told me about catfishing. I was like, ''We skype and facetime though.'' Then he nodded,

''Oh, then you're fine.'' I just laughed, no wonder we all love phil.

Today was one of the funnest day ever, and not because I had 4 cups of fireball/pepper, but because I was able to tell my cousins things I don't tell anyone. I always love hanging with them because no matter what I do, they do not judge me. They support me and they never leave, and people might be thinking, ''Why the fuck would your older cousin approve of underage drinking?''

Well here is my answer, ''I was in a safe place, and I actually was happy, and that does not happen often.''

I can't wait until summer, I'm going to spending much more time with my cousins, until next time,

A.