paperhat one shots (requests open)

Look At Me ~angst/fluff~

this one is a very long and sad chapter so be prepared. I got this idea from listening to one of my fave songs (growing/dying by the backseat lovers). It just kinda popped into my head. anyway, I hope you like this one!

there's a good ending, if you're worried!!
(did proof-read)

(WARNING: slight lime/smut, alcohol, drunk people, vomit, swear words, lots of crying flug sadly)

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~Flug P.O.V~
     Black Hat, once again, has taken a woman home with him. Is she number 6 or 7? Or even 4? I secretly watched from the hallway as Black Hat passionately kissed the attractive blonde. "Let's take this back to my room, hm~?" Black Hat said before snapping his fingers, making them both disappear. I sigh, trying not to let hot tears spill down my cheeks. I sadly fall to the ground, my back pushed against the wall. And eventually, they spill. I can't stop the tears as they cover my face in hot wetness. I sob quietly in the dark hallway. I imagine Black Hat kissing me passionately like that and talking seductively into my ear, which puts a small quivering smile on my face. That smile slowly fades and turns back to a face if hatred, anger, and sadness when I hear a loud pleasurable moan come from above. I quickly get up and run to my room, shutting the door behind me and locking it. I fall onto the ground in a fetal position and cry my heart out. Every second that this meltdown continues, I lose more and more hope that I'll ever have a chance with Black Hat. I mumble under my breath as more tears stream down my face. "L-Love.... me. N-N-Not all those o-other women, but me. And only me. Look at me!" I yell the last part desperately, like if I yell loud enough he'll come save me and comfort me which makes me breakdown more, knowing deep down that he'd never do that.

~Black Hat P.O.V~
     The self-absorbed, wealthy, drunk woman giggles as she falls onto me. Disgusting. I push her off of me and she laughs more. "Y-You're soooo cuteee, Blackie...~" She stutters and slurs her words. Gross. I'm standing by my bed in my room, watching this woman do stupid things because of how intoxicated she is. Which is, to be honest, kind of entertaining. She starts walking over to me, almost falling over in the process. She bites her lips and flutters her eyes at me. Fuck off, I think to myself. She puts her hands on my belt buckle and starts to undo it. She pulls my pants and boxers down and slowly strokes my dick, she's giggling and using her other hand to caress my cheek. At first, I don't really care. Until my brain starts imagining her as Flug. I gasp and blush when it comes to my mind. I stare at her, now seeing my scientist. I gulp and start to sweat, confused why lately he's been taking over my mind so much and why it's... really hot. Flug slowly stroking my hard-on while looking me in the eyes, his hand planted on my cheek. I lose control and don't like these feelings, so I push her off of me and push my boxers and pants back up. She looks at me confused and pouts. "I-I'm sorry, but you have to go." I snap my fingers and send her outside of the manor. I quickly walk to my alcohol cupboard and grab a bottle of wine. I open the bottle and start chugging it. I drink half of the bottle and finally slam it onto the counter, not too hard so I don't break it. I turn around and lean on the counter, looking at the floor. "...Flug..." I whisper to myself.

~Flug P.O.V~
     After my meltdown, I get into bed, not bothering to change into pajamas or change my pretty tear-soaked bag. I pull a blanket over me and let one final tear slide down my cheek as I start to fall asleep.

~Time Skip to about 15 minutes after Flug got into bed~

     I'm awoken to feeling like something's staring at me. I assume it's Dementia, searching around my room, looking for something to do, so I keep my eyes closed and don't really move. I then feel a gloved hand touch my hand, which surprises me so I quickly open my eyes and look over to the side of my bed. I see Black Hat touching my hand and looking wide-eye at me, and quickly retracting his hand and blushing. "J-Jefecito...." I stutter out, blushing slightly as well. We lock eyes and I decide to grab his hand again. We just stare at each other, blushing, not really knowing what to do now. I break the silence and look away, my hand still in Black Hat's. "W-Why are y-you in m-m-my room, s-sir?" I nervously ask, avoiding eye contact. "I..." He starts, but doesn't know what to say. This is the first time I've ever seen Black Hat so speechless and nervous. Then I retract my hand, not wanting to make this more awkward. I slowly look up at him and try to process if this is a dream or not. He then continues to speak again. "Flug..." he starts, not breaking eye contact with me. "I need more time to think, b-but, I, uh... I.. l-love.... you....?" He says, more like a question than a statement. He looked me in the eye as he said "you". I blush madly and quickly look away. He sees my reaction and immediately thinks the worst. He holds back tears and bites his lip. "I... should leave." He says before quickly turning around to the door. I get up and yell, "W-Wait!" He already has his hand on the doorknob. I run to him and wrap my arms around his waist which makes him slightly jump. "I... l-love you, too. And I-I have been aware of, my, um, f-f-feelings... for a long time." I say while still hugging him. "Don't.... leave y-yet. P-Please...?" I say desperately. "Let go." He says coldly and I obey, expecting him to look at me and acknowledge me, but instead he follows through with opening the door and leaving. But before he does, he looks over at me with pain in his eyes. "I'm drunk and not thinking straight, and... I just... need to go. I'm sorry... doctor." He finally leaves, shutting the door behind him, leaving me alone in my bedroom. I decide not to push him and walk back to my bed, holding back tears. I then get back under my blanket, worrying about tomorrow.