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Jin opened his eyes. He is tired today. Even he slept well but he is tired. This week tured him a lot. He turned his cellphone only to furrows.

"why jungkook didn't texted  yet? "

Normally jungkook would wake up before him as he goes to university and text him morning with lots of funniest texts. Telling him what he wants to do all day.

Jin would be smiling and admiring him. He would laugh sometimes at those texts making him feel he is a crazy person laughing while reading texts again and again.

But he would say this week jungkook was different he wasn't the jungkook he usually find.
Whenever they met this month jungkook wanted jin to stay a little longer but jin would snap at him saying he have work. When jungkook would flinch and froze jin would cup his cheeks..

"baby i doing everything for you. For our future. "

"i don't know about future... I want you here for me in present- "

Jungkook said this last week to the jin groaned.

"i am with you. Isn't it? Why you? If you keep Overreacting at small things how will we survive in future ? "

Jungkook just stared at him for minutes and then nodded..

"i know... I feel small things.. I am sorry my bad.. "

saying this jungkook started walking in speed living jin shocked.

"he is just sad he would be fine. "

jin followed him quietly and when he saw jungkook going inside his house he walked to his own.

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"that's strange it's 3 pm and still no text?"

Jin called jungkook that went un answered. He was getting worried he was about to call jungkook brother but suddenly Jungkook'sfather called him

"hello"

"jin.. Come to Seoul inti hospital right now? "

  jin apnicked his heart beat raced. He quickly stood up.

"what why happened? "

"jungkook he did suicide attempt. Pills affected him so bad. He is in coma. "

Jin world stop tears started welling up from his eyes.

'jinnie please stay.. I want to hold your hand while i sleep'

"jungkook. I-"

'please one last time? I am not sure if I'll be able to hold it again '

"jungkook stop it!. Don't you see i am busy? "

Jungkook didn't call. Didn't text anymore . Not Showing anything he is sad or wants to meet him.

Jin remembered all everything. Every memory ran infront of his eyes.

What kind of fiancé he was when he couldn't get what kind of mental start he is going through.?

He stopped the car and ran inside the hospital. Like a mad man he searched his father he hurried hugging him

"how? How is jungkook? "

His father didn't replied and hugged his son back telling him to be strong.

"WHY YOU NOT TELLING HOW IS MY FIANCÉ? "

"doctors said there isn't any hope. We should be ready soon for bad news. "

"NOo i won't let him go!"

Jin's father stepped to his son and geld his shoulder side glaring jungkook father.

"jin i know son. But he have attempted many times. Doctors found many marks on his wrists and he had so much consumption of pills"

"what pills? "

"anti depression and sleeping pills. "

jin screamed and started sobbing. Why didn't he got it.?

All signs were infront of him when once he was talking with jungkook and he mentioned he took pills too when jin was talking about his recent flu.

Why he said 'oh okay.'

Why he didn't ask him what pills? When jungkook wasn't sick or anything.
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Jin pov:

I walked inside the room jungkook was laying with se machines beeing. He looked dead. But no he isn't. He is my jungkook. My pearl. My darling.

I held my head and shocked myself. No everything is fine.  I walked closer with guilt forming in me.

I lost you baby. I am sorry i didn't took you serious. I am sorry.

I held jungkook hand who was laying on hospital bed. He was in coma. Doctors have given up.

I am sorry. I thought your words to be childish.
I am sorry i didn't realized what you feeling when you sighed again and again. When your eyes showed pain. When you said i am not able to  understand you.

I am sorry i wasn't able to get to you when you said you feel lonely.

I am sorry when i couldn't hold you in my arms and lwt you take out everything.

I am sorry i was ignorant i didn't understand the meaning when you said you wanted to run away while you teared up.

I am sorry to ignore and turn blind eye to everything you subconsciously showed..
You was going through so much that you constantly eating sleeping pills and went on dangerous sedatives.

Why i didn't understand. Why i believe you when your eyes were swollen and you said it's dust.

I can't do anything now. I can't turn back time.
I told you i love you. Want to build a future with you.

It's my fault taking responsibility of our future when i couldn't take responsibility of our present.

You tried suicide just after talking with me. I am sorry. I took you for granted.

Just wake up. I know i am not good for you. But I'll make myself good for you.

Please.

"baby.. Darling. Look jinnie is here. "

i caressed his head moving his bangs away. .

"my sweet heart. Look jinnie made time for you.  Only you. Jinnie is holding his precious hands. "

Jin smiled through tears. He knows his lover can hear him so he started talking.

"look jinnie is with you. You asked me you wanted to go camping. I reserved a room.. Let's go there. How long you gonna sleep? Wake up. Look jinnie will be sad. "

Jin wiped his tears and smiled through his pain. When he talked to jungkook non stop for a month but jungkook didn't showed any sign.

"love please... Please come back. I can't live without you. Just show me you are wuth me. Just show you haven't given up. Please. "

"i wish i good to you. I wish..."

Jin pleaded but it went un noticed.
Jin cried this time.

He doesn't know if the doctor said truth or not that the coma patient can hear.

It seemed lie.

Because if jungkook's jinnie would be even sad jungkook would run mile and make him smile.

But here jin crying with having hiccuping but jungkook is laying showing nothing.