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I'd rather not go back to old house

"Hey dude?" He blurted out, cutting through my thoughts and the silence I'd filled the air with.

"Yeah, whatsup?" Jesus that was awkward

I returned to my thoughts, feeling disgusted in myself. We were two boys, a man's body is made for a woman's and not vice versa, that's stupid, why would I ever even think about that? But maybe if I wasn't a dude I'd be able to like him, but I'm not a girl, but I don't feel like a dude either, but what could I be if I'm neither? That just doesn't make any sense if I'm neither. There's only two genders, boy and girl, right? No one can ever be both or neither or nothing entirely. Plus if I was a girl my father would never accept me, like never, he'd probably beat me half to death, same if I was neither.

God I need to stop letting myself think about this stuff, it's making me seem weird.

"What's the mistake you wanna make? Is it like weed, drugs, alcohol or something?"

"No but those all would sound so good right now."

"Well Larry has all of those, if you're interested in buying from him."

"Woah, you're into that kind of stuff Sally face?"

"No it's just that Larry is, and he's got an affordable price of all that shit"

"Alright, I'll text you if I want any." I can't believe I'm actually just able to text Sally whenever I want
"Do you know anything about being transgender? Like if you're transgender or not and all that stupid stuff." Woah, I wasn't even thinking about that anymore, why did I even blurt that out? That was so random.

"What?" He seemed startled at my question

"You heard me perfectly well, don't lie."

"Well. Erm- why would you ask me that? Do you think I'm transgender or something? Do I look like a girl or something?" He sounded a bit nervous, like I'd just accidentally said something that instantly would set him off. Why did he seem so defensive all of a sudden

"No I don't? I just thought, since you're gay and stuff you'd know about that stuff."