Yn pov
Maybe just like others , he has given up on me. , I wrote in my diary and sat up straight, thinking what has life become, is he bored of me? Has he found someone who is better in every way unlike me , who has never been upto his expectations. Should I confront him? I thought and went to our bedroom to find jungkook.
He was there sitting on the bed, typing on his laptop, i sat beside him but i was hesitant to speak or ask anything, but i mustered up some courage and as i was about to ask him what happened he cut me off with "i can't live with you anymore" , he looked at me with nothing in his eyes, when i got married to him, there was nothing in his eyes except love and love, but now these eyes hold nothing for me, am i the reason behind this coldness in his voice and nothingness in his eyes? Have I ruined him just like I ruined myself?
"I'll pack my bags" , I said. There were no tears in my eyes, my heart was crying, once again. "Look at you, you were so desperate for this moment" , he said as i looked down and said nothing because yes, i was desperate but not for this moment, i was desperate to tell him that he will become a father soon, i was desperate to tell him how much i love him and i was desperate to thank him, for making me feel like i matter for the first time. He stood up and came to me and held my hands and this time, there was something in his eyes. "You are an emotionless person yn, you can never love anyone because you have no feelings" , he said but with visible tears in his eyes and left the room. I packed some essentials and took out my phone from the pocket of my jeans and called the only person I knew would help me, my friend Leena.
Jungkook pov
She never cared, that's why leaving me was so easy for her, she didn't even protest or ask the reason behind my decision of leaving her, she never even questioned me once , did i even matter in her life, or was i not capable of getting her love? Getting rid of the pessimistic thoughts, I got dressed up and called Jimin hyung and went to a club to get rid of my melancholy....."i wanted to kiss her so bad and beg her to stay when she said "I'll pack my bags" " , i said as Jimin hyung was stopping me from drinking more. "Why did you give up on her?" He asked as I had no answer.
"You remember you said she was a good listener, i think even a good listener needs a listener too, you should have asked her in a loving manner to open up a bit and you should have given her some time to trust you, but you just left her like that, this is not the way a relationship works, women don't need us men to survive, they are great warriors but as a husband it was your responsibility to understand her." Hyung said and suddenly there was a wave of regret I felt in my heart.
"Let's go home" , I said and stood up as we booked a cab. I reached home and opened the door, hoping to see yn in the bedroom but she was not there, the house was empty, so was my heart. I looked at the cupboard to find nothing there, except a small box, i opened it and saw a pregnancy test with a small note, "happiness is coming, our happiness jungkook" , and it was enough to break every part of me, i was not crying this time, i was sobbing while my hands were grabbing my hair, in regret. I took my phone and called Leena, yn's only friend.
"Is yn with you?" I asked right away when she answered the call. She mumbled a small yes as relief rushed through my body. I cut the call and booked a cab again, to Leena's home.
(Ik it's a short one , but stay tuned for the upcoming parts:) )
