First of all I apologize to all dear readers for posting so late but i promise I'll be active and post the other parts soon.
-your always late author
31st December, 2022
Jungkook is the first person in my life with whom I feel like I'm in heaven. This is my first time falling in love with a person or having a person with me. After my brother and grandma, Leena was the only person I allowed in my life and after that I closed the door of my heart because I was just too afraid to let anyone in. I accepted the marriage, thinking life will be the same but no, it's so different. With Jungkook I feel like has a meaning because he puts a meaning into my life. I don't have the courage to say it but I think I'm so in love with this human.
14th February, 2023
I don't know what's wrong with Jungkook, but he has stopped looking at me the way he used to look. I don't know why he is ignoring me suddenly. Today when sending him to the office, he behaved rudely with me and didn't even eat anything. Has he stopped liking me? Or maybe just like others he has given up on me.
(Remember the second part of the story? It's that only but with yn's perspective)
15th February, 2023
First he said he can't live with me then when i left him he came to my parents house to pick me up. I was so disappointed in them. I knew they never loved me after my brother's death but never thought they would send me back with him. I won't be able to trust anyone again. First my parents and then Jungkook, why do they always abandon me? When we came back from my parents house he was asking for forgiveness, why? Just because I'm carrying his blood?
20th February, 2023
I don't know what to feel, my mom sent me some pictures of Jungkook with a woman. I felt so insecure and doubted myself and him. I got sick, got admitted to hospital and even accused him of cheating on me. I thought I could never be anyone's first choice but when Jimin oppa told me the truth I was disappointed in myself. I asked for forgiveness but will he forgive me?
I said a lot of things to him, it may sound like an excuse but I was hurt. How do I unheard those words when he said he can't live with me and how do I trust him again when he loved me one day and turned his back on me the other day?.
(Diary parts over, finally yyyy.)
Jungkook pov
I was too stunned to say a word, tears were kissing my cheeks at this point because of what I did to her and what she went through her whole life. She was a little human being when her only brother left her , she needed comfort too but what did she get? Hate from her own parents. And the only person she ever received love from was me and I still broke her precious heart. How do I ask for her forgiveness for breaking her heart , for snatching everything away from us.
I thought she did not love me because of her quiet nature and habit of keeping everything to herself. I thought she is not happy with this marriage but instead of confrontation I did the worst thing possible, three harsh words at her and because of these mistakes she couldn't even tell me about our baby. Because of me , she won't trust me again. How do I take everything back to normal? I was thinking this while harshly wiping my tears which were flowing non-stop. But Why would her mom send those pictures to her?
I closed the diary and went to her room. I kept the diary in its original position and kissed yn's forehead. "I'll make everything fine" I mumbled and left the room while thinking of something.
