Fuck You Mr. Hero

Chapter 4

Its been days of them together gathering and talking. Carl fell harder than he knew possible. M/N has denied any type of spark besides friends.

They had a few moments that made Carl think maybe M/N feels the same way I do. Whenever he tried to act on it M/N always shot him down.

"What was life before Alexandria like for you?" Carl asked looking over at him. M/N bit the inside of his cheek and looked down.

"Im not gonna get into it alright?" Carl walked ahead not noticing his behavior. "C'mon cant be that bad" Carl scoffed with a smile.

"Carl some of us didn't have anyone alright I get the shit you gone through sucked but at least you had people to help you with your issues I didn't have shit so when I say I don't wanna talk about it means I don't wanna fucking talk about it!" M/N slightly raised his voice with venom lacing it.

Carl looked at him amd nodded with a frown. "Im sorry" He barely whispered and continued walking. M/N sighed and put his hand over his eyes.

"Shit. Sorry i didn't mean to yell." Carl just nodded staring everywhere but him.

M/N looked at him with regret. He's grown quite attached to him. He's his only friend. Besides Ron he didn't connect with anyone back home.

"Carl." M/N ran up and grabbed his shoulders. "I do wanna tell you just-- just not now" Carl gave him a sympathetic smile.

M/N wrapped his arm around his shoulder as they walked back home.

Time Skip:

"So. Dating Ron Anderson?" Carl asked as they huddled up side by side in front of the roaring fire.

"If this is a judgement thing im not answering" M/N joked making them both laugh. "No. in a friend way" Carl said in between him trying to catch his breath.

"Well he was nice but he just understood me ya know I get him. We got similar issues i guess and he's just so open but-" M/N went silent. Carl looked over and bumped his arm into the boy.

"Im not gonna tell anyone" M/N smiled and stared at the flames. "I think he still feels for Enid and I guess he just doesn't even try to hide it anymore I mean i was just a random guy who showed up at his doorstep and he's been with Enid almost as long as shes been on Alexandria"

Carl just nodded. He started to pi k at the skin on his hands. Part of him was upset because Ron loves his girlfriend but a part was also mad at the thought of Ron using M/N.

Was he a bad guy for being slightly happy about there relationship failing?"

M/N waved a hand in front of his face. "Hey stop that shit." M/N huffed out and grabbed Carls hand and holding it. "Picking at it isn't good" M/N smiled at him as he rubbed his thumb on his hand.

"We got a day left then we're home again. Sucks being away for so long but kinda sad we wont be hanging out so much" Carl confessed.

M/N laughed. "Carl we can still hangout just the two of us ya know its not like we're thay far away"

They both looked over at each other. "Promise?" Carl said in a whisper staring into M/N's eyes that seemed prettier lit by only the light of the flames.

M/N nodded with a slight smile. Lost in each other's eyes as they leaned there faces closer.

As they almost connected Carl closed his eyes. M/N let go of Carls hand and leaned back. "Well we should get some sleep now" he quickly laid down and faced away from Carl.

Carl stared at M/N's back next to him. "Yeah." He said as he put his back against his and stared away.

'Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck' M/N put his hands over his face in self hatred. 'I like Ron. Im dating Ron. I can't kiss Carl. Carls a friend. That's it. I like being with Ron. I could never date Carl. Right?'

M/N's thoughts raced the same pace that his heart was. After hours of nothing but them both staying awake in there thoughts it was time to go home.

Time Skip:

The trip home had been quiet and uncomfortable. Once they reached the street and could see the gate for Alexandria M/N stopped in front of Carl.

"Last Night. It was a misunderstanding and I'm sorry alright it didn't mean anything" A pain stirred in M/N's stomach but he pushed it off as being hungry.

Carl nodded with the same sick feeling.
"Got it." They smiled at each other. The feeling lifted the more they smiled.

When they got to the gate M/N threw his arm around Carls shoulder as Eugene opened the gate.

When it opened Rick and Michonne were standing a few feet in front of them.

They both stared at the boys with raised eyebrows. M/N went in and hugged Carl. "I'm gonna go see Ron I'll see you later tho" M/N gave Carl a genuine bright smile before heading down the road.

Carl smiled as he watched him leave. He went over to his dad and gave him a hug. "So how'd it go?" Michonne asked with a smirk.

Carl smiled. "Actually pretty good." He smiled harder thinking back to all there moments.

Carl walked past them heading towards his house. Rick and Michonne watches confused.

"Didn't they hate each other?" Rick asked put his hands on his side's. Michonne nodded. "Thought so. think there's anything we should know about?" Rick shook his head.

"If there was he would tell us." They both nodded as Carl disappeared from there view.

"Hey Gavin do you know where Enid is?" Carl asked one of the guys on the street. "Yeah I saw her heading to Rons earlier" Carl furrowed his eyebrows.

"Okay. Thank you" Carl paced as he went straight towards Rons place. When he got to the front of the Anderson household he ran into M/N.

M/N stared at him. "Dude don't you think we've seen each other enough. You stalking me or something." M/N smirked.

Carl shook his head. "I was told Enid was here" M/N's face dropped. "What?" He quickly walked to the front door Carl right behind him.

M/N lifted the mat and grabbed the extra key. He unlocked the door and looked around. "I saw Jess and Sam at the park said he was home"

A thump upstairs caught there attention. M/N scoffed and bit his lip. "Stay quiet" He whispered to Carl as he slowly made his way to the stairs Carl behind him.

Step by step they crept up the stairs as muffled sounds filled the air. Eventually they made there way in front of Rons door.

M/N quickly opened the door slamming it open as Enid screeched throwing a blanket over herself as Ron hide behind the same one.

"Your fucking kidding me right?" M/N raised his voice as Carl just stared at them with a gaped mouth shocked.

"M/N please it's not like that" Ron pleaded. M/N scoffed with tears in the brim of his eyes. "Fuck you Ron" M/N turned and stomped away.

Enid cried as she stared at Carl. "Im sorry Carl" he just shook his head and ran out.

Carl went home almost sobbing. When he opened his front door he was glad no one else was there so he didn't have to go through the embarrassment of them seeing him cry.

He dashed into his room and slammed his door shut flopping onto his bed shoving his face into his pillow and curled up into a ball to soften his sobs.

M/N paced in his house with balled up fist. "Fuck!" He yelled slamming his fist into a mirror. He breathed heavily.

He sighed as he started ripping things off his walls and smashing things. He looked around the room that's completely trashed now.

He threw his back against the wall amd sunk into his knees. He cussed himself out for being so upset over something as stupid as a relationship.